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Thursday, July 31, 2008
oh well! i was reading JEANIE blog hmph! well kinda INSPIRED TO write an *INTERESTING* blog which sometimes a WILL does not always can COME TRUE talking about literatures,diaries yea maybe my blog simply like a diary well to me i guess so but i guess to a certain people i love to know what is goin on with their life how they feel today but i hate people who haVE SLSinSSW u know what is that? it is SUPER LONG SENTENCES IN SUPER SMALL WORDS OKAY fine! i do too BUT now i dont! so SHHHHHHhhh i was so impressed by the increasing of BICbo *(its bitches who also have bimbo personality)* well,it doesnt need to be a girl to b a bicbo if u get what i mean? :)) ps:vani get what i mean IN INSTANtS!! well,i was a lil religious nowadays and according to jezz its GOOD FOR me so i gues GOd do a lil experiment on me by showing UP My dear long lost AUNTY who i had grudge on,and angered on which is so as if volcano can burst anytime and IT DOES In instant, I mad! vulgarity filled my vocabs and attitude of ahlian back to position in second! so LUCKY i realize i guess a lil hyperity taken place today because i m too stressed and too pissed over those unnecessary things .. oh well.. im still human still makin mistake NOT HOLY yet..like whaat jiarui SAID!~ i shall TRY HARDER i know i can do it!! dont worry christie BABY U ARE DOIN FINE HMPHHHH STRIVeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee baby , i ll make u proud :) jezz , u will see me gettin better and better person each day bao , u will see ur words of advice never go down to e drain bev , u will see me stronger no longer e cry baby jasmine , u wont see me sit down and cry all by myself jiaruy , u wont see me sayin i feel my life so worthless anymore dage , u wont see me thinking all the worst twin brother , u wont see me complaining so much over stuff yeah i will make everybody HAPPY AND MYSELF happy too! this few people are mkin me realize things that i never realize i guess the existence of another person in ur life always have reason so i m glad i learnt it so yeah thats all for today :):) muacks bye bye
BYE BYE - RemixThis is for my peoples who just lost somebody. Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady. Put your hand way up high. (Put em way up high) We will never say bye. [no no, no] ('N hear you say goodbye) Mommas, Daddies, Sisters, Brothers, Friends, & Cousins.(Hey) This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers.(Heyyy) Lift your hand to the sky. (Lift em way up high.) Cuz we will never say bye. ('N hear you say goodbye.) -Akon-Even though I know your gone I know I'll see you again. One thing that I can promise we gon' meet up again. Hopefully up in Heaven, prayin that I'm forgiven, For everything that I've done and that I forgot to mention. It feels so bad to be without my homie. And ever since you been absent I been so lonely. Why does life recycle around like a trophy? Even though somebody took the time to warn me. That you can't be with me and it's just crazy. And everyday I'm wishin you'd come save me. And I know a man ain't suppose to cry. It's takin' all my strength and my soul to say goodbye. Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.[Say goodbye.] Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.[Say goodbye.] Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.[aaaaaaaaaay.] Bye Bye.[Say goodbye.]- Mariah-And you never got a chance to see how good I've done .And you never got to see me back at number one .I wish that you were here to celebrate together. I wish that we could spend the holidays together. I remember when you use to tuck me in at night. With a teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight. I thought were so strong and make it through whatever. It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever. I never knew I could hurt like this. And everyday life goes on I,Wish I could talk to you for a while. Wish I could find time not to cry. As time goes by. As soon as you reached a better place. Still I'd give the world to see your face. And I'm right here next to you. Feels like you gone too soon. Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye. Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye. -Lil Wayne-How come they call it goodbye? How come the good die?See I just get high. Think of the good time that I had with my Pop. He was a good guy, how come the good die? As I protect my mother, cuz I'm her older son. And there are different worlds, and we in the coldest one. Which one did granny go to? And why do death come? As my baby ask where do babies come from? I tell her where, I tell her why,I tell her I love her until I tell her bye. And whenever I shall if ever die. I hope you celebrate it, I dont never hate it. They say that heavens gated, but I think I know the code .Lets get yo life right, by the end of the road. Dats why I drive alone, down memory lane .So if I crash I hope yall remember Wayne.Goodbye. I never knew I could hurt like this. And everyday life goes on I, Wish I could talk to you for a while. Wish I could find time not to cry. As time goes by. And as soon as you reached a better place. Still I'd give the world to see your face. And I'm right here next to you. Feels like you gone too soon. Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye. Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye. Wave your hands up high! HEY! Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye.Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye. Just lift your hands up to the sky. Bye Bye.Cuz we will never say bye bye. happy 1years anivessary
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
these three are my favourite photo. if u notice,he nv once let me go from his hand thats make me feel safe because there is someone there to catch me when i fall no description! she told him to take a proper picture of her but he took candit WE TOok this photo while waitin for our beef in the first photo,he tried to be romantic and i makin fun of him resulting my ear gets "bite" from him ouw..TIcklish so therefore,we decided to take e PROPER one after that which looks NOT bad my first favourite photo of the day :)) there is up and down in this relationship of course every couple have to undergo such circumstances however, im glad we are doing fine ARENT we,baby boy? im glad that i have you and im glad i found you i hope that our 70v3 gonna be real and everlasting without further do im just gonna say I LOVE YOU muacks ahbeng-ahlian style: I Lubb U laogongxxxxxx! oh yuck!~ ps:i couldnt smile so brightly if there is no you wisdom
Saturday, July 26, 2008
it's neva too late for you to say SORRY and there is no harm sayin SORRY first. is'nt it? i guess that understanding is the beauty of WISDOM im glad i learn it :)) another day of a day
Friday, July 25, 2008
even just like this,its enough i wish in my every down u are there but i cant be selfish so i didnt bother you but thats y somehow i feel u drifting further should i juz find something to subtitute this feeling? to make me feel better? or to fill the emptiness im feelin miss you sighing
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Thursday, July 24, 2008
jiayo jiayo jiayo i need courage i need more confidence let me sleep and wake up with confidence n courage then everything will be allright MOore..make it mooree
takin a break from GIMI GIMI MORE OH MY goat! hurtin my ass hurting my boops hurting my legs hurting my necks no i mean NECK hurting my hands ouww why? I WAN MMOREEE~~ TO lesner
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
so this is all i have HAHA!! This POST are created especially for :lesner: hope your birthay today giving u more courage on the everythings u do give u happiness give u more CHARM no more sadness,worries more lucks and best part of all the MF part of u slowly VANISHED hahahahaha happy birthay to you happy birthay to you happy birthay to lesner happy birthay to you! from me and ryu :) new blog skin :)
Monday, July 21, 2008
woohhoo finaly this can be used -e blog skin and but i m sad i lost my DEAREST BUTERFLY
blessed~
Sunday, July 20, 2008
it takes time to realize... and finally that it ISNT about being the best counts that it ISNT about how much money u ve get counts that it ISNT about how good ur looks counts that it ISNT about concerning everybody that counts and not about how people hurt you how negative aura passes through ITS ALL ABOUT YOU,YOURSELF,YOUR BRAIN! things get better when u start to forgive to step back a lil to smile over it take it in the positive way to dont think "that things hurtin you everything that happen,happen with a reason and i wanna blessed you God for always teachin me and let me understand and given me life that i have which sometimes i dont apreciate which i almost give up i ve given up too much time to be counted but i wanna stop being this i will thank you for every up n down because u know what is best for me i wan you blessed all friends that u give and the one who teach me life and give them ur light when they are in troubles ps:even a lil pad in my shoulder,a tight hug, a smile, messyin my hair, inside jokes we have guys,u brighten my days thanks for all the lil things :)) i also want you to blessed people whom hate me,and whom i stil hate -but i tryin not to hate- so our relationship wil b at least normal no more hatred so my face wont be so black because of this hurt and my skin cell not dead everytime curses spitted i also wan you to blessed my parent and help me to forgive them i know its hard since bearing this grudge since i was a lil girl but i wanna try and please let me be strong because somehow i scared to try and LASTLY but not least bless my babyBOY give him happiness and let his wishes come true and so that our relationship will be better each day till the day we closed our eyes forever We blame the World .. for our boredom and our losses, and we forget that is we ourselves who welcome such events into our lives. Therefore, is up to us bring forth the good days ahead that are waiting! CHHERS! <3 BIG wish
light pushin through the darkness i hope things better and better each day :) finnally i feel good after this hectic months but babe juz over strained my leg *punch*her ps:hope things gone well :)::) thanks God for blessing my life after all the miserable circumstances u make me grow stronger thanks for all the people surround me given by you that taught me and makin me realize how to see things from + view how lil simple things so important so touchin so lovin so sweet i wish all the happiness within you guys and baby boy too through up and down we ve met nv once regretted i learn to hate and to love even more past no longer the present things will be better when forget n forgive done AND! my temper vanished WOAH~ big dream LOL!!!!! today's feel :)
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
TA DAaa.. im just back from TRICIA's blog it was a hillarious post she-ve made i mean not as in its wierd or funny but more likely I COULD BLOODY IMAGINE HOW THE HELL HER FACE WHEN SHE WRITES IT OUT! oh well~ hahahahahaha was a lil unhappy over the so unreasonable CI of mine insulting my country and assuming things which i bet she doesnt even read news well i m not so patriotism but yea i have just A LIL~ LOL so was kinda cheer up by bao's msg suprised n was kinda enlightmen i was just thinkin bout her this few days out of no reason which i dont wana say too (shy) ^_- and there she is pop up with a retarded msg haha! so thats some memo of the day i ve told my bboy that i missed him so much when i see him as if i haven seen him for years which actually only TWO DAYS!! LAST BUT NOT LEAST babe i hope u ve read the previous post i ve write i dont really know to put my words just tellin u how i feel and maybe if u have,u could tell me how u feel picture's perfect to you from me
Sunday, July 13, 2008
i dont know y im distancing myself from you maybe because somehow i dont feel it anymore y babe? u can love someone more than me u can miss someone more than me izit because that incidence? i ve lost that girl u thought she is more important than u i admit on that time i juz nonstoply emoin about her and previously thus i wanted to tell u not because u are not important to me but i thought u know that i dont need to say what is wrong with me? tell me? just because of my full of insecurities? though i full insecurities but im there when u cried when u need someone to blow ur thing i hug u i kiss u i ve change when u said to maybe not fully because of u for myself,i know! but i do it because i still cherish u too wether u believe it or not i know u have ur own decision u can choose whoever u wanna be fren too or maybe im selfish i know i m selfish i juz wan my own fren to be my own so is that e bloody problem?? i dont even dare to ask wat is e problem? why things are like this? im too scared that u wil say now u dun hav frien , u get back to me if u think so i m gonna tell u this if i were too think that way i wont blog it out instead i ll ask u i dont even know what is wrong im too scared that people think im tryin to be somebody bestfren i dont know y i dont even can talk properly joke properly instead i behave wierdly oh gosh! i grow to know that i envy you i love you and knowing the feelin to lose u laid back
Saturday, July 12, 2008
TODAY so boring in a ward which is filled with only 7 patients how pathetic it could be? well,me miao2 mayphing is like playin BINGO to kill time life is not lifeless as what i thought oh well times passes,i guess my wound forgotten i feel or maybe i wasnt around there yet and i cant feel it or maybe i started to get easy with my own life so it feels better :) i guess,coz my family site is coolin down -at home- or at least when my daddy wasnt around this surface family thrill i gues a lil better when he is out of picture i mean not in "Death sentence" way in a a way *bev preposition* sky is blue wind is blowing softly gently makin u feel the relaxation bring you to the laid back mood face up the sky and be thankfull what GOD has given to me maybe everything not yet perfect or not even meant to be doesnt really matter sigh...hmmMmm amen
Monday, July 7, 2008
isnt it all along already sour afta that night i wonder God says he will make ur heart set in peace give u protection and a brighter future for people who read this may ur life and ur worries rest assured and calm within u brighter day tomorow the day after and always may god be always with you amen i left my unsettled past done to my awaiting future
Saturday, July 5, 2008
finnaly u found the right girl i guess after all we really are nt meant to hate each other i gues 3 to 4 years meant something for us a memory but memories will stay as memories as i told u and true enough the day i give up i will give up the last day i ve decided to talk to you the day u decided to get my heart back its real too late chances are not for forever when i decided everything not worth it i will let go you know that all along.. and u very sure what u ve turn me into im not blamin u on anything but somehow rather u turn me from an independent young girl into a woman filled with indefinite insecurity treating the guy i loved the way u treated me but im sure i wont repeat the mistake u ve done as i said i love him too much to let go and as much as i could change so much for him i hope u wont hurt her the way u hurt me neverthelles,u are forgiven now i guess u feelin what i m feelin for the past 3 years and u ve change and make a point to apologize im sory for anger i ve caused and curse i put from now on wards i wish ur happiness and my hapiness so incase u dont know if we last till my bday next year by that day i will b his forever and that what i wish for now in my life more than anything ps:the last tears caused by you no longer hurting but a happy one for both of us. 0UWw
u pissing me off selfish super selfish~ lol oh my gosh SELFISH! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !! one day karma will occurs cheers to ..
Friday, July 4, 2008
lol.. lesner,thanks for ur that sentence wether u mean it or not i feel happy haha but it sounded quite bad HAHAHA jezz,yea..i wont write it here incase u are keepin it as secret from others but i glad i know that :)) wohoo!!!~~~ babyboy, beautiful winds blow tenderly embracing me with glimmer of shines twinkling with bright smiles we both will b fine maybe we no longer having farytales but i hope we wil have a happily after life times do heal, no matter how hard how hurt we will be better each times it goes :) hapiness tt i juz wanna keep in my heart LOVES
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
girl,u will be okay i dont really know wether u read this blog any more or all along u dont. neither i wanna people to know who is this referring too but i only wanna u to knoW i am caring and concerning u from far.. and i will protect u if nobody there for you im more cheerful now not because of anything it just i try to make my life better :)
give me courage in e same time doubting me :) but once for sure u nv fail to make me feel better just by a hug FROM
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