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There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on
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Thursday, November 27, 2008
will allocated at auditorium 12 Th and 13 Th of December tic:10 buck only!! i was being a blog hopper recently. i just realize... so many things happen around my friends that I'm too busy to ever glance to it its not saying I'm trying to solve it or being busybody it just that i just realize how ignorant i am now i guess ,cant really blame it on me though? blame it on to person who create i am now. blame my cowardliness only for not trying to concern anymore damn the holistic cool shit
i got quite such an "UNDERSTANDING GROUPMATE." pop LOCK today .. bruises around all over my leg and i guess another overstrech on the left leg oh well both leg got overstrech..so MAYBE IF i dare enough ... i force it to do SPLIT OF COURSE.. i dont dare -___- though truthfully i am enjoying popping and locking. i feel i quite strugglin now. is like i can catch the step already but i cant really potray it good enough. well its not even reach *GOOD ENOUGH* state. 2 weeks.OMG.2 WEEKS.!! really nothing much to write now. damn sian. damn hyper. damn retarded. damn cool. damn damn damn damn damn damn day after yesterday
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
im in school now.it spells S-C-H-O-O-L!! WOW..!! this morning i didnt come for a lesson well i should say :its not another maybe *all along i didnt come .so and well.. teacher called my name towards the end,and OBVIOUSLY i wasnt there. and so :She wanna put me in a disciplinary case. im scared! of course....i already have one disciplinary problem. !!i dont wan to be in the waiting list of suspension. so i told her I WAS having diarhoea. enough said :) I PROMISE I WILL GO LECTURES FROM THEN ONWARDS. tomorow,BIO PRACTICAL EXAM. and basically im not starting anything yet. and so..wish me luck tomorow. i guess I WILL NEED IT AS ALWAYS :))) gotta be starting to study soon hm..bacterias. hm..viruses.... hm..heamatological disorder? hmmmmmmm.. im still quite in badmood over last night.i guess its really hard to forgive something u see with ur own eyes and worst of it denial taken place. letting go maybe not MY choice.but if u need to do so,i guess i will need alot of courage and strength. bless me with peace.AMEN mixed occasions
Sunday, November 23, 2008
yea..finally i ve done after another 4 hours trying to figure out this blog thingy. im PROUD of myself.YEAH! well,if only i have such mentality in dance and my school works. or should i say,if only dance and school is just as easy as solving scripts. then THERE WONT be the DOPEST dancer anymore. yesterday , i was dying my baby hair. the colour turn out QUITE NICE. hmhmh... soon u will see my baby hair. u goin to say "IT SPELL charm" oops..i mean it just to me.not you.OF COURSE because he is not yours!:)
all we have in common is that old bunch of friends. our life has changed so much. we talk about how we used to be,how is that person now... how many of our betch gets married.and stuff that really general. she told me maybe she is moving to singapore. well ...if she does,maybe things will different again. we ll see. i wish i could have a friend,that steady to go starbuck just to chill watch horror movie,even though we both retardedly scared go ice skating even though we couldnt sing me twinkle lil star when i broken heart talk all shits and hapiness over the phone can i replace you with one else? it seems u are so far. somewhere i couldnt reach. im so tired.leturgic. today!?
for four hours i ve been searching a new BLOG SKINS. i couldnt find any suitable one yet though. how i wish i could make one. but either im too busy to do it , im actually too lazy to make one. i was reading Diane's blog. i felt really sad for her.i wish she wouldnt worry so much. and i was really touched with what her mommy do. not all mommy do that ,isnt it? i mean.. my mom doesnt even care wether i have perfomance. when i wish they could just come for my production. my daddy actually said that "see how first..not very important."lol. i guess she is a really lucky girl. so i love you diane,plz do take care of yourself okay. and today im so sory i didnt really talk much with you, because i dont really feel well myself. jasmine,PLZ DO take care of ur hand. if not you will see it drop like dead cabbage. i should say my life quite fine. except the fact im literaly quite sick.and there goes my mood. i guess i really overwork my body. it seems my health really quite affected badly. though i said I DEMAND MYSELF NOT TO SICK. i ve been vomiting since wednesday night. its like nothing actually come out.though thursday night,some minch food actually do vomited out. but worst of all,the feeling just come when im dancing vigorously. sigh..~ im waiting for baby to come. oh ya..i see a yellow butterfly today.i was trying to chase it. but i couldnt !-__- its so RARE to see buterfly flying around school area. I MEAN HERE IN SINGAPORE,actually its quite bloody rare. sigh..i like butterfly,but it seems none of butterflies like me. i went to a butterfly farm in penang(if i wasnt wrong), none of butterfly wanna stay in my arms. confession of the day : i ate a chocolate. i swear i will never do it anymore. my head thumping like as if endless needle piercing my head. another sigh... how do you define friendship?because it seems to me friendship is so beautiful but yet so frightening. im in need of rest!
Friday, November 21, 2008
i want you to be there when I fall dictionary of today, sometimes u need to consider other's feeling when words outta from the mouth and that goes to you too peeps. be considarate. not too much,not too less im really really tired today today hanisah you are dope.haha so hope the dopeness stay with you till we reach KO night!hahaha good nite people! points of life
another long day passed. still 2 weeks more!! today ROADSHOW is okay.i guess im enjoying myself. so are you?OR arent you? either way,i just hope things go well and so we will not be dissapointed at the end. so im still trying my very best to stay STRONG. this time round MEANS body wise. I DEMAND MYSELF NOT TO GET SICK IN ANY MOMENT! SO,i ve improved? i cant see it... i wonder how it looks like. but i just wanna keep improving like a shooting star AND of course I CANT.lol i guess , like fong said : i must learn to let it goes my way.
and im thankfull that i have alex who taught me the beauty of ignorance. :)) thank you hanisah to bring back the confidence that i ve lost. lets work together :)))) i cant wait.! it seems my life getting better. im greatly thankful to God.amen. so GOOD NITE.i have a long day tomorow.hmm GOOD NIGHT world
Thursday, November 20, 2008
HAPPY BELATED SO BELATED BIRTHAY BROTHER. been long since i ve blog. hagard days i must said. so many stuff happened.GOOD and BAD too. like the competition that doesnt goes v good. but i guess lesson learnt. n no matter what,things will not always go your way but if it happen,it must happen for a reason. so be brave and continue to strive. so thats my lesson learnt. good thing,im glad LUNCH BREAK PERFOMANCE done! yeah~ and i was quite happy with the praise given. and for that,it not that i AM THE ONLY one doing great job but without help of nORA,diane And some not mentioned people i m nothing. so yeah.. :) tired though... good night people. cared
Saturday, November 15, 2008
i just wanna do a lil praying God,please bless the home baby's stayed make it safe ur angels taking care the whole house and if there is any devil plans from the bad people please take care of my baby n the family secondly God,tomorow is my baby and lesner competition and alot of my friends too. so please do take care of them. my life is my life im moving on with or without all the loneliness and my depressed moment im happy for what i have a lil pat* to myself,HAPPY BAOXIN? and a lil smile for those people who cared for me : )) its okay to have just 1 or 2 friends as long as i know they cared for me im tired
Friday, November 14, 2008
i want a lil relaxationwith my brain? with my life? with my entire thing? and please, can problem stop haunting me and baby? please get all this shitty stuff out of us please take care of my baby God.please im down
Monday, November 10, 2008
im pretty shallow.i am seriously. not sayin i am one. but my mood,oh yes! i have alot of things goin on within me really... where do i start? i felt people said they are your friend.. they cheering you up and things like that and wanna be there for you when you are down and every here and then but DO THEY TREAT YOU AS REALLY AS THEIR FRIEND? IM pretty wondering it myself after all,how do you count friendship ? im bloody pathetic?!i know i do. my life seems perfect. everything it looks fine. everybody judging me the way i am. are they even trully? why when i get really down... i scroll down my phone contacts.. i try to call people i thought i could just try to release my pain too i M JUST receiving.. "im up for something.." "im doing something.." "bye.." a rejection..or a feeling i just dont belong..not there..not here i come to a point that i dont have anyone when i get really down. when i just cant seem to pretend anymore. which made me ended up with some strangers? fuck,im smiling,everyday in my life. i seems always fine,i can laugh... im not acting.. i pretty cool when i m laughing and behaving things are normal but everyday in my night, i m alone i m really alone. no matter how much tears shed,i cant fill the emptiness i felt. something is missing somewhere.i dont know what is that. im searching.i really searching. and if you are not my friend,please save ur concern. really..i dont need that. i take it more to a pity and insult. all i need,wheres my oldies? wheres the person that i can just behave the way i am. who doesnt judge who am i? who can laugh all the lame jokes i made. and dont scold the wrongdoings i ve done. and not throwing a disgust look when i ve done something stupid or behaving in any judmental way. i dont wanna face the world that filled with emphaty hypocrite,courtesy where im suppose to behave this way that way where i need to be righteous where i must behave more mature where i cant spit or utter any jokes which just because i dont belong they think is not funny so what?after i write this u think im really pitifull? i care my face too much that i starting to lose myself. i admit i m alone. and i always be the loner. is not like i dont know that im just a stranger to everybody i really need you. i ve been searching for you i ve been contacting you i couldnt seem to find you why cant u appear like how it used to be.. why we are seem so far where are you.. please,i miss you dearly my friend
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Sunday, November 9, 2008
pedophelic also called hebephilic.low esteem poor social skills men with lower iq,^ Cohen LJ, McGeoch PG, Watras-Gans S, et al (October 2002). "Personality impairment in male pedophiles" (PDF). J Clin Psychiatry 63 (10): 912–9. PMID 12416601. injuries to the brain ^ Global Crime Report | INVESTIGATION | Child porn and the cybercrime treaty part 2 |BBC World Service functional magnetic resonance imaging research that hypothalamus not functioning well ^ Schiffer B, Paul T, Gizewski E, et al (May 2008). "Functional brain correlates of heterosexual paedophilia". Neuroimage 41 (1): 80–91. doi:10.1016/j.neuroimage.2008.02.008. PMID 18358744. two types of pedophilies : exclusive n nonexculisve exclusive is rare.The US Department of Health and Human Services The prevalence of child sexual abuse in Africa is compounded by a belief that sexual intercourse with a virgin will cure a man of HIV or AIDS. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/12627683 SELLING BAGS
Friday, November 7, 2008
HI READERS.IM SELLING THIS TWO GUESS BRAND. IM SORT OFF GET TOO MANY NEW BAGS, THAT I AM ACTUALLY NOT REALLY WEARING THESE TWO. SO I M SEELING IT. THE RED ONE,which my mom bought for me,IS BRAND NEW. U CAN STILL SEE THE TAG. I SELL IT $50.FAIR ENOUGH? IF U ASK WHY IS IT SO CHEAP,IS IT FAKE? IT IS NOT FAKE.U CAN ASK THE GUESS BOUTIQUE!! 2MONTHS AGO, THE OWNER OF GUESS COME TO SINGAPORE, AND MAKE A FUN FAIR GUESS IN GRAND HAYTT HOTEL. SO THEREFORE,I M ABLE TO SELL YOU IN THIS RATE. TRUST ME,U WONT FIND THIS BAG AT $50. IT ALSO $50. THIS IS MY FAVOURITE. BUT I DONT KNOW WHY,MY MOM WANT ME TO SELL IT TOO. the celebration of the 2nd
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
father and son trying to get the fire started. aaron with his new stuff. the girl pose. the guy pose.my baby darling. candid shot of lesner. bev n rui. lovely diane. bev me n rui. kenny n me with the extra jasmine.baobun n me. me & rui. baobun n bev. baobun with diane. the retarded pose of us. baby trying to kiss lesner.while rui watching it carefully. baby boo. baby with his black hand.
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