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Wednesday, May 27, 2009
i took a slight break from my studious period. im going to a serious *MADNESS*. i went to search "complication of corneal ulcer" everywhere. YES EVERYWHERE *google.com* ask.com *msn.com* yahoo.com *search.com* and a serious retard shit *dictionary.com* i couldnt find anything more visible for my friggin project!!!! GOD DAMN HEAVEN SAKE. nabei.. WAH,one more to go. i thought i could finish both projects in 2 hours. so i would be able to accompany baby tomorow night and give him a serious massage. okay full stop to those retard whining. taking a break and finnally opened a web asked by sharon. my face started to turn from black to purple. i scrolled down the tagboard, i was hmmm.... *that-person was having problem all around* pity soul. -.- lesson learnt : "stop comenting and shut the fuck up." what i dont understand why makes your life so difficult by commenting such unnecessary stuff? does it make your life feel better to see other's misery or unhapiness? UPDATE this is TO REMIND me of DIANE!!!  usefull wordings : dino , locking , pink , tiny , monster , diane "wink vigorously~~~~ perfect combination.AHhahaHA" i feel so smart haha. i UPDATE 2 long postS in today!crazee
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
WAH! GEEZ. I GET DAMN EXCITED AFTERREADING DIANE(thought diane has nothing to update so far), KAHSING,TRICIA,JEANIE(THE THIN PONYTAIL),AUDREY SHARON,DAPHENE,DAWN,BEV,JASMINE,XIAOMEI,HONEY ANDEE (WHICH IS CLOSED FOR FRIEND),ARJUNA,AND MANY MORE diane blog is always the first stop, most probably because i could spell her blog without hesitation. diane-loves.blogspot.com. okay this is random. anyway, GET DAMN FRIGGIN high after reading everyone blogS. most probably my hormone shoot up to my tiny lil brain and get myself hype up instantly. okay this is duper random. ACTUALLY,im finnaly get the vibe to BLOG! everytime , here and there i essembled my variety of thoughts while walking,before sleep,or dazing to update my blog. but ONCE, i reached home,sat on my bed,faced my laptop, *bomb* every thought dissapeared! firstly,IM SO GLAD THAT I COME TO THE KONIGHT PARTY last saturday and thats "Thanx to aho" for forcing me to with all his whine and his sarcasm. but yes! LUCKY LUCKY I COME. i watched every single battle till my eyes pop!! AND IM SO proud of RUI!! "remember U CAUSED ME NOT BE ABLE TO CHOREO because you keep talking to me and me convincing you relax relax can one can one." AND tiny monster pink with jin & ks team. AHAHAHA! I KEEP laughing laughing and laughing during that battle. ks WITH HIS FOREVER "Act dao" and diane who give the "ne ne ni pu pu" and her dino mouth! it was friggin a FUN TO WATCH battle. serious. its been so long since i felt this way. jin is forever hilarious.everyone knows it. and tricia "come on dont be down :))" and yes so many others .... GOOD JOB PEOPLE! happy bday mikal and sharon. get older get more money get cooler get all the positive things in life !!!!!!!!!!! and yes finnaly FINNALY!!!! I GOT AN IDEA FOR 12 JUNE. and im excited i m going to buy new laptop! yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh STILL ALOT MORE BDAY COMINGS UP.MONEY IS DEPLETING!! but of course its not a problem.its just a whine.hehe!! soon on goin : bev,jasmine toh, kahsing, baby,xiaomei TILL THEN~ restaurant's story
so here it is. my new hair.
how am i suppose to earn? u see this !! everyone stealing my potatos !! and the worst part IS I CAN only stole theirs *the most 6?* :( *ahh..dreaamy eyes* i wish i could live in this dreamy land eternally.yes..imposible. nodding my head to those comments.yet dreaming is never wrong.
gigly moment.
Monday, May 25, 2009
the best part of arguments are MAKING UP.*gigles* pretence
Sunday, May 24, 2009
pretence is the best way to prove assumptions. im tryin to form a sentence of goodbye. like *g*o*o*D*b*y*e sometimes.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
enough is ENOUGH! tired
i hate things go very slow."there is time..there is time" mind this sentence? look at everything in the bigger picture because when you do you know you have such a lil time for such desires. *** and thanks to ARJUNA. A.J.I. *arjuna is dope* I HAD a new hair. will upload when photos are ready. *** judgemental.
Friday, May 22, 2009
how words can cause misunderstanding.how people judge without trying to be the other person shoes. ah... OF COURSE its unfair. life ah life. everyday we complains that people are not trying to be in the other person's shoe before judging harshly. you think you ve tried? ALL THE TIMES? no?! so shut up. and remember ignorance is a bliss. *** sleepy.hungry.broke. im glad i still have bread to survive. TIRED. now.present.
i still feel the aches and pain every single part of my body.i skipped my tuto as im actually late.and knowing that i m late it meant i wont be given my present attedance. so stop by at the lab, and spent the rest of my hour playing happy farm.okay..this is so friggin ridiculous..... i m still not getting over about yesterday yet. feeling... i want to fall in love to dance again like when i see people dance so happily.when i see bro and boo chasing after their dream with no looking back. with such a great determination. when i see my friends around me training so hard for a goal. that feeling..the eagerness..that love.. i want it back so badly. the feeling of wanting to run together with them. stand tall.stay strong.stay focus.endure for the passion that once burning. boo hugged me till i fell asleep. i know he will catch me when i fall. till then ,- fear towards future.
today is fun.sessioned with honey. joined by andy & andee. i definately have alot to improve.alot to learn. especially after what bro told me about "my feel" gone. i definately know it and try to work on it. and im definately no time to get demoralized and to get dissapointed over it. *** its pretty hard to say what am i feeling.because i myself seriously have no idea what to feel,neither reacting it yet. all i know i need to overcome my fear. i dance for myself to enjoy not to get stress over it. enjoy... this word sounds simple yet its so complicated. i wanna feel the way i feel before. i wanna dance because i enjoy and love dance. not because i want to be acknowledge.not because i want to be someone else. for that i need new inspirations.new foresight. *** im feeling insecured.but why am i feeling this way? there is this fear controlling me.fear of losing.why? im scared. dozens photos
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
start with this super RANDOM shot.
*** KO NIGHT PHOTOS.
tired.NIGHTS. social relationship.
Monday, May 18, 2009
three of questionare are patheticly done.none with score above 80or at least reached 80.am i so mysterious?haha. i feel a lil lost.i apreciated your concern but i guess talks are becomin more and more harder for me nowadays.i guess its not a problem with repeating the story,but its the problem with i hate consolidation. but yeah i feel fine now.thank you. *** why?close friend?then why u drift just like that? every single time i talk to you.. ackward.i cant feel the sincerity. why it feels so insecure? why dont i ask?simply im too afraid it goes from worse to worst. *** KO NIGHT. good job guys.and i especially feel damn happy for tric&diane.:) no need elaboration of it but yeah you know it,i know it's enough. will update photos soon but not so soon.cause im still not home yet. let me rest in peace. dissapointment
Friday, May 15, 2009
even a word " i love you " is hard to salvage a callous relationship.action speaks louder than anything. when serious convo is about to start first everyone will keep quiet their eye will fixed to the person who are talking and they will listen attentively. when you see a bunch of joker doing their own thing how you feel? where is the respect? the same principle apply to every kind of relationship. i m dissapointed. the least person you expected is always the person who dissapoint you the most. its not a expectation i made but its the mutual understanding fading. humans are the same.egoist. when something is there in everyday of their life. they take granted of it.till they lose it, they start to cherish it. Labels: dissapointment foresee things in dillema.
money is depleting right now.family crisis definately takes its toll.firstly,allowance cuts down,followed by credit card usage is prohibited. its not like dad going to make a big fuss if i really use it excepts the naggings but somehow rather,i grow to be more mature and or should i say i get more understanding towards my dad situation with consequences, and situation of him working so hard as a breadwinner. *** thanks babygirl for telling me how you felt truthfully.im sorry. it shows i meant something to you.i guess that is the best part of friendship.truth and understanding. thank you. though,i feel fairly insecure that friendship broken because of my imperfection?i hope that is just wild guess.because i dont wanna lose this. *** i m tired. future ahead gonna be soon hardcore. especially with endless projects , and not to forget competition. i sincerely hope every single of us work toward it together. chiong together.one for all.all for one. please...dont let history repeat. *** update : jiayo diane and tricia.you both can pull through it. everything there is down and up. every down definately make you stronger and wiser. its a pleasure to see people chasing their dreams.because opportunities are priceless gift and dreams are a road to success jiayo baby & bro. and rui & cz. relax..~~~ till then...-good night world & haters. Encouragements,Worry,Thoughts
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
cracking my brain to write outrageous post. but i failed.im not that ridiculous afterall. ") and haha finnaly i ve changed my blog skins again. however,pretty dissapointed it doesnt look as good as i thought. oh well.NEVAMIND...... by the way, since sometimes that i have chinese song. its xm' s fault that i get seriously addicted to this song. *** anyway,i came late again for my lab. its an hour late.
worst of all , i woke up and received a message from my classmate telling me i m having examination tomorow,4 oclock sharp. wtf. no preparation,no study mood. perfect excellence encounter. oh sux. *** recently,so much that had happened. perhaps it doesnt affect me neither it is my business. but so much so that left me wonder and drawn into countless thoughts. in finalle,i come to a conclusion : everything in this world continue revolving even you fall to your deepest shit. so stand up,embrace yourself and look up as the sun still shining so brightly above you for its a sign of a promising future. so people,my friends especially whom encounter falls in your life. be strong.be vigilant.be optimistic. i aint perfect as an individual but as much as i can i want to be there when you are facing shit in life as i know it feels sux to be alone when you need shoulder to lean on. if i failed to,im sorry. *** past is an eminence teacher that taught you how to handle present & future. ps: i really need to study.and to win baby in restaurant city.oh damn..im losing. OMG
man.i wrote super long essay and my entry gone.irritants of the day.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
man..i got nothing much to complainexcept one... fuck..stop acting close with my boyfriend. zzzz. e learning plaza here im.
Monday, May 11, 2009
its amazing that so many people visit yet no tags.my blog must be a boring blog that noone tag.AH??!!!!! BORED.in schooL.forced to start on my project. played restaurant city.yet now it encounters error. 2 seconds away from hiring XM as my cleaner. and there goes my connection ~ there is much to update. a happy not happy and pretty well and pretty not well and it goes bla bla bla. perhaps,when i start to get more diligent on typing. boo bday is soon.sharon bday is 24may. man,....... money is pretty tight.and i hav been down with so goddam sickness variations. THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO , YET SO BLOODY LITTLE TIME! ps: it feels a lil sucky stil here and there for the things that i tryin so hard to understand why it happens that way. smelly
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Lightly let go I just can't take down my fondness for you In fact love will slowly increase in weight I want to turn off all the lights in this city In the dark, concentrate on smelling the fragrance of your hair This night Makes the crush have a lot of imagery feel Remembering The places I have been on dates with you I'm unwilling to delete them Storing them in my mind to enjoy You smile browsing The romance in the handphone In fact giving out love with a genuine heart is so simple Going over it on the screen Your cute face About the explanation of fate, I have texted another line You smile browsing The romance in the handphone In fact love can come so suddenly The text message's bridge Pulls the period of ambiguity longer Our feelings spread and develop using words to cultivate On the fictitious soil The TV wall The noisy love song is still desperately broadcasting I silently wait for the incoming call ringtone in downtown Some words I have typed already but I didn't dare send Scared that you, who will receive the message, will be troubled On the street The tide of people sets off my loneliness Imagining Who is lucky to be by your side? Yet it was a misunderstanding You are also waiting for your handphone to ring You smile browsing The romance in the handphone In fact giving out love with a genuine heart is so simple Going over it on the screen Your cute face About the explanation of fate, I have texted another line You smile browsing The romance in the handphone In fact love can come so suddenly The text message's bridge Pulls the period of ambiguity longer Our feelings spread and develop using words to cultivate On the fictitious soil it definatelly takes sometimes for me to re singing it over and over and over. xiaomei' fault and definatelly she gets iritated coz i just keep repeating it again and again. a lil memory passing by.not the past but the present coicidence. criticism definately is futile.but critiques always in the air. dont judge. really.. sometimes everything has two different stories. this is the contracy thought i have for dozens of these days. i keep reminding myself dont judge dont judge. its hard. seriously its pretty hard when you are ill-treated before. damn.. wah liew.xiaomei noober then me. she spells restaurant "restuarant" random* LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH OUT LOUD. i haven bath.omg!~ IM BEING STUBBORN.photos dont do talking.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
vertigo been striking since the night after "K.O night". f.u.c.k.let the pictures entertain you readers for the moment of boredom. me&xiaomei the night where we out with being so un-pretty.  a super duper dued pictures of jay oh joey birthay.   this is where all the retards meet to find out who is the dope in being retard. ps :not all presented though. and the winners are not here too.  lastly but always not being the least. oh my friggin god. why are u so cute in the picture only???? Ahh..LOL.  GOOD NIGHTY WORLD. reflections
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
its gonna be a pretty long post i have today.my head still feeling the round and round ~ and but im actually travel around with this shit im feelin. oh well... *** KO night. Hmm.~ im glad that i had joined and i had achieved something out of it. im actually pretty confused when alot of people told me i had a great dissapointment written all over my face. im seriously dont know why my affects differ from the way i felt. and yesh xiao mei just told me that i had this dissapoinment and sour face of envy when i said CONGRATS to those who got in.WTH lol!im not lor~ *rolled my eyes* haha. anyway, i really wanna thanks popper ben alot. for being never ending teacher who guides,give me advices, and tell me weaknesses which i need to brush up and encouragements. i will do what you ve told me. strive what i want to do. thanks ahei too for the endless support and stopping me from giving up. and specially lesnerbro and boo who never once despice me and give me endless encouragements,wake up calls, and telling me where goes wrong. for being always there to support me when i feel so *%#2. im really thankfull to have you two. i think you two have seen so much behind the scene and i feel really bless that u both support me so much till now. Okay, im glad and im happy for joining ko night.thanks leron for partnering me. it was a good journay working with you even though it was such a short time. oh well i know she wont be reading this but yeah its okay. this diary written for my own reflections. *** today, basically not much thing except i ran to school as usual, and upon reaching my class,my teacher basically asked me to walk back all the way to auditorium to get my temperature checked. dumb shit. 2 hours presentation without preparation which was pretty well presented by the help of my dear teacher. suprisingsly she told me this "christie,i know you are busy with ur dance,but please do some homeworks too." wah..i never got such an understanding teacher. anyway,on the way to meet jeanie, i met victoria. she was driving her car. she drove me to mrt and man... she drove like she wanna kill someone. met jeanie afterwards.accompanied her as she wan to go to do facial. i fell asleep at the sofa while waiting for her.its crazily embrassing.but anyway i hope you are feeling better by now. i bought sandals which costed me 10 dollar,tempted to get another one but NOPE. i didnt bring my credit card and i had serious craving over so many foods so yeap i ate paper lunch , kfc , lolipop , ice cream , a lil chocholate cake. oh that reminds me " happy birthay shane and phei ying." its crazy to have so many cravings in the middle of my headache. went over to ngee ann to fetch xiaomei. waited for her about 1 hour plus when she and kx finnally appearred. i was pretty worried i lost in ngee ann because my phone almost dead. oh kx " where do you live btw?" laugh out loud. still couldnt get over this joke. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA i must be laughing till damn freakin ugly. anyway hope he is not so free to see this. so me and xiaomei stopped at kfc and started to talk nonstop about dozens of stuff from her from me.contents that are just for us to know. suprisingly, i found out some similarities. and fortunately, there is someone understand the way i feel towards my thought, my reflections and somehow rather i found a soulmate who seems pursuing the same goal. the journey has just start.its gonna be long "as what teacher said." but dont give up.so i dont wanna give up and tell myself i cant. so muscle training ar xiaomei. lol. i want to cherish this newly bond relationship. relationship as a friend as a partner as a support as a dancer. there is up and down but with understanding, and trust we will be fine :) sound so mushy.ah *"shy"* im so excited. my passion burning. please let me remember this feeling. and so my passion will not die off. *** thank you lord for things that happen in my life. till then good night world. :)) instilled blood
Sunday, May 3, 2009
i always thought everything has a way. character could change. but no.there is no way. because character is just like instilled blood. and unfortunatelly im bearing it together with all the shit i feel now. will talk about ko night when im better in condition.
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