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There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on

LOVE















lets give our all babe :) and good luck to us.
we fight for it.YEAY
butterflies :)









trust yourself.trust myself.trust in us.

ITS VALENTINE BABY.
im here to wish you happy valentine.

happy CHINESE NEW YEAR too.



to my dearest friends.
hope you guys had a great valentine with your loved one or purely just friends.
valentine is not only for couple. but for everyone basically :)


this year definately, not my favourite.
lets not elaborate it.
however, im glad we ve been through it.
i suppose it will made both of us realize the importance of each other in each other life.

Also,
it made me learn something else,-
when you know you give your best, you have no regret when it ends.


"After you’ve been broken once, you become like a stone, a rock, a
moving one. And don’t matter how hard you try you’re still broken and don’t seem
to feel the same for anybody."

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thanks to bro wonderful thoughtfull accompanion chat last night
and also the joke which ended up to be a very useful CREATIVE work!
you are the best!!! <3

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im glad you <3 my gift baby.
it was a priceless moment the way you reacted and the way you responded.
and i really wish i could get a glimpse of it's snap shot.
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i just realize
sometimes not every beautiful moments and sight seeing can be captured in camera.

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recently i miss rui. but ive got no time to have a chat with him. sigh..
and meeting with my old band pal bring nostalgia.sigh..

and i miss eating nasi lemak with xioamei.sigh..

Recently,im so busy to even catch my breath :((

these feelings that has lingering in me for sometimes

not those biggie thingy happen that left me with biggie impressions

it just those nosey smal thing here and there

causing me to feel nauseaus

lets start with those worry thoughts that not yet leave me,-

though its new year. lets recall things like "family?"

why does family never fail to give me a sense of losing myself?

it makes me believe its imposible to have a genuine family.

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people.

who know nothing but judging as if they know everything.

its hard to admit

it agaisnt my ego to admit

that im a victim of bully.

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it gets outta hand,i start to lose my self esteem,my morale,my purpose of life

and all i could think "how wonderful if i could just die without fear of pain."

and then i look back,-

if i left ..so many undone thing left untouch

..worsen the situation of home,causing harm for my lil brother

..lastly,how does he will survive the chaos?

i picked up the left over strength i have and face tommorow.

but the scars left..

the wound stil bleeding profusely

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i forced my smile, i laughed on people's joke and my own jokes.nothing funny.

yes its so funny that i could laugh while feeling everything so sour.

thankgoodness its a total new environment

they dont know me. they just know me for who i am there in front of them.

and i could feel less worry because they wont ask you "are you allright?"

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all i can do,

forced myself to move foward.

drown myself in work. i work harder then people know.

i focus more than anyone who give their heart to work.

then again

someone's jeolously try to crush me down.

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my pilar seems to be weaken.

and i refuse to lean on

im not gonna let us fall together

and so i stood myself

look afar....

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people i thought dear in my heart, suddenly seem beyond my reach.

suddenly i felt so lonely.

alone.

stress..

money, works, how people look at me, upcoming future..

everything start to bring me down

it seems i lost control of my life

it doesnt pace according to my regime