notsoprivat

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2010-07-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

IM SO WONDER
WETHER MY SICKNESS WHICH IS COMING ONE AFTER ANOTHER
IS IT DUE TO THE PROBLEM OF MIND?
AM I REALLY WANT THIS?
AM I REALLY SUITABLE THIS?
IT SEEMS IM NOT ABLE TO TELL ANYONE
AND I M GOING CRAZY OVER IT

PLEASE HELP ME

manywords.

2010-06-18T18:28:00.002+08:00

there is those many feeling many thoughts purging out as the hurricane that strike haiti with no warning neither signal. it feels there is a sudden rush "snap" there goes my soul.
walking every day day after another with no direction, unsettled thought, unsettled feeling perhaps im dead, no im more likely to be a zombie. a walking zombie with nothing but empty tiny puney brain. what should i do? where should i go? its about me, myself , my life.

bipolar? perhaps i had a slight these here and there. wrong mind, mentally unsound somehow.
or perhaps keeping so much,feeling so much,watching so much making me think
":fuck i wish i know nothing:"

TO :

2010-06-08T22:50:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really wonder
is it so hard to say "hi friend, how are you?lets catch up..its been sometimes."

bintan.

2010-06-01T19:17:00.002+08:00

crazy bintan trip.fun was fun. happy was happy.broke was seriously broke.

everything is crazy there. especially "price"

work has been on going pretty fine. except recently there is too many near collapse.

stress level getting higher each day. less cheerful each day.

however, i can do it. YEAH .....~

damn this filty life.

2010-05-21T20:31:00.002+08:00

HECTIC MOMENT.
im pretty exhausted to the point i m gonna faint anytime soon.
hold on hold on... a lil bit more......
brain continues to think and have thousand thoughts.
money is a problem. money oh money
im so worried............

We will grow up eventually.

2010-05-10T00:07:00.002+08:00

from now on,im a butterfly.no more larva.

i got to spread my wing and learn how to fly on my own.

clearing my own mess, so i better be more responsible with my choice.

goodnight dear friends.

wish me luck.amen

distorted thought.

2010-05-08T15:13:00.002+08:00

there is things i never been able to let go.

there is stuff i wish i have never had.

there is past that i didnt tell people.

there is current situation that you godddamnit know its so wrong.

there is future that damn creeping me out.

FUCK IT.cooll~

yours beloved,

2010-05-06T01:58:00.002+08:00

sometimes all i want to do is sit beside you.i want to watch cheesy and crappy or horror movie with you, and we will fight or laugh at them all together.
i want to plan an outing with you, things we never do before, as long as its you i am with.
i want to talk to you about everything and anything.
i want to goof around with you and make joke that arent funny but we laugh about it anyway.

im sure its possible till always.right baby?
browse through some songs and i found this song. its beautiful ...
im gonna dedicate this song to you. though i know its not your kind anyhu,
but im sure you just gonna listen it anyway since i dedicate it to you :)

my new toy.

2010-05-05T03:17:00.002+08:00

YEAH.finnaly i get my holga set.

e perfect one for perfect people for the first perfect 13 pieces.*since one was spoiled by e seller*

damn... if only xm could stay till i get the camera,-

my new little toy

unidentified thought.

2010-05-04T04:35:00.003+08:00

mesmerized by those twinkle excitment

up and down like roller coaster ride.damn..am i fantasizing??

i cant seem to guess what were you thinking?

uh..should i say why the hell i care?

my thought go wild like gaga's sense of clothing

confusing

2010-05-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

in the heart aand in the head is so disturbing.

baby

2010-04-30T04:05:00.000+08:00

i start to miss you a lil more than usual

its an unsolved state.

2010-04-28T00:47:00.002+08:00

pretty much just ranting
aye not feeling great to see you and pretending i dont know you
i miss you.
its hard to start a convo ,when you dont quite giving a proper reply.
at least ,it was,
therefore, im afraid of starting it now.
can we be ?

be friend because we are friend.

2010-04-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

my life slows down a lil.i met new people around.

facing different strangers everyday.

spent alot of time with my dear friends.

im glad im happy and living.

im glad i have great friends around me.

after all, friendship is something that come naturally.

and i m glad i found you guys. those friends who are there through these while.

afterall those fews that matter.

a piece of emotional condition

2010-04-26T15:23:00.002+08:00

will it possible if i ask to those stars ?
and when i start to encounter,-
the silence of night..

am i wrong to be,-
walking in these empty path..
shut myself in this uncertainty.. me and those who hurt by us.

-peterpan

today,

2010-04-25T21:05:00.009+08:00

suddenly i felt im .............................. and it .................... me.
hopefully this is just a game.a game i created.
wether im winning or losing ,i decide it myself upon myself.
however,it gets a lil dangerous sometimes......
when within this game ,there is things call heart&logic.
***

love letter by the known one

2010-04-15T03:55:00.002+08:00

My thought go out to you my immortal beloved
I can live only wholly with you or not at all
He calm my life, my all.
Only by calm consideration of one existence
can we achieve our purpose to live together.
Oh... continue to love me,
Never misjudge, the most faithful heart of your beloved
Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever hour

To connie.

2010-04-05T02:55:00.007+08:00

dedicated this my dear love connie.

21 your age now. and you look gorgeous on your 21.

i bet you enjoy your 21th party which mean one of my wish for you accomplished.

sadly, i cant attend till the end. however, im still happy for you.

im very bad in writing an essay neither love letter or all sorts of letter infact.

but let me write a simply gorgeous one for you......

age of 21 is a time where girl turn into woman.

physically, and of course mentally (most of the time hopefully be a great mom)

firstly,

im glad that i have and know you, really!

because you are the greatest friend i have though i know i m pretty cock up sometimes.

your gentleness,your sweet random msges, and everything about you.

noone can ever be the way you are to me.

secondly,

let God bless you with a good health, surrounds you with love & peace and lastly

succesful in things you dream and wish to aim for.amen.

last but not least,

may our friendship stay as beautiful as it is. :) and i love you deep deep!! muacksssssss

ps :i love your retardedness,your randomness, your everything HEHE thank God that i know you.-)

haha..you must be touched to see this message. gooddnight.sweet dream

@#$%^&%(^)*

2010-04-01T14:45:00.000+08:00

recently i cant be myself around my own friends.
wtf is wrong with me ??!

whatayawan from me

2010-03-30T02:25:00.002+08:00

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I will let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don't give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

(So hey) just don't give up
I'm workin it out
Please don't give in,
I won't let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, i won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

let stop believing . it doesnt exist . coz i feel so exhausted to continue believing thing that didnt exist and i feel so worn out that im the only who care.

am i?sigh

2010-03-23T01:23:00.002+08:00

am i being sensitive?

held ur head up high.

2010-03-15T17:53:00.001+08:00

chances are something you create yourself.

by jinbo

DAY-OUT.

2010-03-10T00:31:00.006+08:00

pretty isnt it? flowers are such a beau creatures.
nowonder it represent elegance , sweetness, tenderness, & love.

got to thanks sharon for bringing me to such amazingly magnificent place!

and her photography skills which make me even more prettier.

HAHAHAHA!
*agreed baby?*

i was bragging about my beautiful umbrella to honey. hehe.

its seriously cutey!

such a pity those photos are a lil blurr.....

i had a great fun today.

finnaly we got to meet up and not feeling tired.

ate a great lasagna too.

and she was so retarded, wanna pour my liquify sugar into

her coffee ice cream. WTH.!!

it would taste so yucky if im late to realize what was happening.

HAHAHA! okay ..

anyway GOOD LUCK STUDYING sharon!!

tourist of the day :)

Morphos.

2010-03-08T18:29:00.002+08:00

the author who photographed this beautiful butterfly, i assumed he didnt know much

about butterfly. Or perhaps, he simply just called it by papilon blue.

Either way, this is morphus. I love this butterfly so much. It makes me believe that there

is something beautiful and fascinating in this ugly world. :)

Anyway, what do you think of my new blog skin? been thinking of changing it for sometimes.
Finnaly got a chance to change it. im not seriously in love with it,but oh well its good enough.
And oh well, i dont really think much people bother reading my blog but
if you do please do tag. hehe. my tagboard is so lonely and quiet. PEACE out !!

great days spent with great friends.

2010-03-06T20:57:00.006+08:00

without prior notice a week has passed just like a snap of finger. *snap*

that is said for my 1/4 of my holiday weeks. great one indeed.

mon good, tues great , wed amazing , thurs marvelous , friday wonderful ,sat awesome!!!

if you had that before, you know how great it was :)

well not all day pictures are taken though. but i simply love every single of it.

monday mel class was excelent !

(guys, u should try too. its at natasha studio.

her class is on monday 7pm.

you will definately learn and have fun !!)

L4D with robin ,mel ,mouse and the rest of guys was fun. though i puked a lil.

tuesday mahjong with capalang kakis was DOPE.

i love mahjong. but its hard to get addicted since i always has nobody to play with.

wednesday my back get fixed. it caused a serious great discomfort but once

i met my hell ya fun girlfriends, ive forgotten the pain and enjoyed the rest of the day.

thursday finnally, our own sweet time strolling and enjoying ourself arrived.

shopping & chatting & chilling & eating always been a blast for us

i enjoyed myself like you do :)

say hi to wang wang.

friday i was really glad that i got to see you. i hoped you understand.

the rest of the day i ve spent playing a serious long mahjong and my damn great

brother kept winning in 12 rows. WTF !

he must be secretly practicing after i taught him not long ago. hmph

*
saturday too was amusement.

imagine how flat my battery after trying so hard to book the damn movie tickets.

imagine how fast we walked from one place to another.up and down.down and up.

like honey say "We ve been up and down together."

how not??

walking up and down stairs and escalator in a great speed.

not to mention allegra class was great. we will be using that warm up soon. HA!!

we seriously sister from different colour. *_*

its great to have friends whom

you feel a lil more comfortable with

you enjoy a lil more than usually

you trust a lil more

i cant wait for the rest of my holiday weeks. especially next week when i got to see baby on thursday.YEAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

calm.

2010-03-02T17:32:00.004+08:00

do you ever wonder what lavender represent?

i will.. i ll keep this promise for you. faith.

from the bottom of my heart i whisper this gently.

let the breeze bring it to you. cuddle you with its tender blow.

it feels so quiet, but its amazing. its fascinating how something can bring you to such a relaxation and calm state.

how could people be so retard..

2010-03-01T15:25:00.004+08:00

get a life..you and your bunch of useless punk -_-'
stop making yourself look so noble.

doubleblue.

2010-02-21T23:53:00.004+08:00

it was a great inspiring moment at floor the love.

i cant be thankful enough that i have a really great partner,i mean real great!
interms of individualistic,characteristic,thought, and the willingness to preservere together.
thank you for having faith in me as much as i do with you.
no matter how despicable people are in dis-sing me, you always believe in me.

so much for friendship,partnership and love for dance.

i am so glad we overcome barriers together. So much for the love of dance. :)

still remember i told you :
"dreams are like a star,you wil never be able to reach it but it will
bring you to your destiny."

you know,-
you made me able to dream,
you made me feel i want something so badly,
you made me feel i can do it as long as we believe in us,
you made me dont wanna dissapoint you *sorry if i did*

with a great insecurities within me, fears of failing again and again, mockings allarounder & thinking perhaps this is not something i can do, perhaps i should give up preservering and then i stop wishing anything , i stop also dreaming to even to be able to stand on stage.

However, your great love for dance, your courage to be able to dance again like a slap on my back , you dance not for anyone else, you dance because you love dance. and im able to dream again.

i really love every single moment we spent together,
though sometimes it goes fruitless,but most of the time it was fruitfull.haha

everything is like a fun thriller ride. SERIOUSLY I SWEAR.
even the way we could say " i feel like farting now and prutt...".
we gets too comfortable with each other.haha.

lets strive for our next time & future. lets gambateh. lets have trust in ourself more.
lets enjoy more! lets keep the good work within us. let all the positive air around us.HAHA.
im gonna miss you soon. sobs..

thank you great Ra judge for everything.
compliments,constructive comments and also thanks 1G for trying so hard to explain in english so we could understand what we need to improve on. i hope one day i'll be able to go korea to visit and learn from them. Robin said they were really great people. one day........

lastly but no least,
baby you never failed to be there and support me. trusting me, listen to my doubts and fear, take a time to calm me down, hold me when i get really nervous and your tender look and words of encouragement before and after the competition and "you done great,gambateh baby."
it meants a hell alot to me.
*
fellow friends who support me, encourage me, believing in me ,cheer for me and scream for me.
thank you so much. YOU GUYS ROCK! im so touch and you made my days. :))
*
not to forget, highcuts *thank you* bow. beammedd....~
shar & cok who tried to make telepathy joke to calm my nervousness night before the competition.(chibu). coicidence siol!!
connie who constantly reminding me to believe in myself.i love you love.

congrats to all my fellow participants !rach&marc (congrats cry baby.hehe) and

xiaomei (you did a great job.fucking man lah...i like it too much!)& mel (fierce mama).

and so on...(you guys did a great job allright?!!!yay)

i had alott of fun.thank you.
and goodnight :)

ps:in the end we stick to doubleblue,coz this name bring us so much memories.

FTL.

2010-02-19T14:26:00.013+08:00

FLOOR

THE

LOVE

lets give our all babe :) and good luck to us.
we fight for it.YEAY
butterflies :)

trust yourself.trust myself.trust in us.

happy valentine

2010-02-16T02:12:00.002+08:00

ITS VALENTINE BABY.
im here to wish you happy valentine.

happy CHINESE NEW YEAR too.

to my dearest friends.
hope you guys had a great valentine with your loved one or purely just friends.
valentine is not only for couple. but for everyone basically :)

this year definately, not my favourite.
lets not elaborate it.
however, im glad we ve been through it.
i suppose it will made both of us realize the importance of each other in each other life.

Also,
it made me learn something else,-
when you know you give your best, you have no regret when it ends.

"After you’ve been broken once, you become like a stone, a rock, a
moving one. And don’t matter how hard you try you’re still broken and don’t seem
to feel the same for anybody."

***

thanks to bro wonderful thoughtfull accompanion chat last night
and also the joke which ended up to be a very useful CREATIVE work!
you are the best!!! <3

***

im glad you <3 my gift baby.
it was a priceless moment the way you reacted and the way you responded.
and i really wish i could get a glimpse of it's snap shot.
+
+

+
+
i just realize
sometimes not every beautiful moments and sight seeing can be captured in camera.

***

recently i miss rui. but ive got no time to have a chat with him. sigh..
and meeting with my old band pal bring nostalgia.sigh..

and i miss eating nasi lemak with xioamei.sigh..

Recently,im so busy to even catch my breath :((

emotionaly. physically.

2010-02-09T18:22:00.003+08:00

DO YOU FEEL ME?

these feelings that has lingering in me for sometimes

not those biggie thingy happen that left me with biggie impressions

it just those nosey smal thing here and there

causing me to feel nauseaus

lets start with those worry thoughts that not yet leave me,-

though its new year. lets recall things like "family?"

why does family never fail to give me a sense of losing myself?

it makes me believe its imposible to have a genuine family.

people.

who know nothing but judging as if they know everything.

its hard to admit

it agaisnt my ego to admit

that im a victim of bully.

it gets outta hand,i start to lose my self esteem,my morale,my purpose of life

and all i could think "how wonderful if i could just die without fear of pain."

and then i look back,-

if i left ..so many undone thing left untouch

..worsen the situation of home,causing harm for my lil brother

..lastly,how does he will survive the chaos?

i picked up the left over strength i have and face tommorow.

but the scars left..

the wound stil bleeding profusely

>

i forced my smile, i laughed on people's joke and my own jokes.nothing funny.

yes its so funny that i could laugh while feeling everything so sour.

thankgoodness its a total new environment

they dont know me. they just know me for who i am there in front of them.

and i could feel less worry because they wont ask you "are you allright?"

**
all i can do,

forced myself to move foward.

drown myself in work. i work harder then people know.

i focus more than anyone who give their heart to work.

then again

someone's jeolously try to crush me down.

**
my pilar seems to be weaken.

and i refuse to lean on

im not gonna let us fall together

and so i stood myself

look afar....

**
people i thought dear in my heart, suddenly seem beyond my reach.

suddenly i felt so lonely.

alone.

stress..

money, works, how people look at me, upcoming future..

everything start to bring me down

it seems i lost control of my life

it doesnt pace according to my regime

i hope i could see a lil light in the middle of my darkness. i hope this period will over soon.

worrisome days.

2010-02-09T00:33:00.003+08:00

life of 2010
been
real
sux

it makes me feel like isolating myself from the world.
i kept trying to tell myself
"its allright, its okay"
but im so tired
it gets hopeless
it gets frustating
and i get more pessimistic

pressure,stress,worry.
i wonder why

gettingallsweaty.

2010-01-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

recently,my blog is as pictur-ish as xiaomei.which almost no words in it.
as i thought , purpose? to throw tantrums? to complain how injustice people are?
fuck tard life for moment in this friggin tard world.

wow ..and what.. i just get fine $300,- bucks for throwing cig but.CHEEBYE

tired of being gloomy,-
instead let me see life in its better aspect,
working has been fulfiling still tiring as usual and also i ve met really great bunch of people.
i dont care whats conflict they are having, i just cant be bother to get involved.
ive got enough problem to get headache about.
as long as im nice to them,they are nice to me. its all settled.

“You’re never gonna be alone, from this moment on. If you ever feel like letting go, I wont let you fall. When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on. We’re gonna see the world out, I’ll hold you ‘till the hurt is gone.” thank you.it meant alot baby.

speechless

2010-01-20T01:38:00.002+08:00

thosepotraits.

2010-01-18T16:18:00.003+08:00

time passes just like a snap of finger
one of those decent dates
those time whereby we sat down on the couch and,-
wind was blowing soft across our face
flawless times with everything not worries

nowadays, time gets precious each time clock tickling
whereby words are even harder to deliver than ever before
no, not because of misunderstanding,-
but time contrain....

it goes down to .." ive got so many thing to tell you..."
but we ve got no time to sit down and have chat WITHOUT worrying about times

those lil things such as
bedtime story tickle war massage from tired era random dates
watching movies watching anime (most of time reluctantly) dota-ing together
all of and bla bla bla.. continue bla bla bla.
im starting to cherish it even more..

i used to think how wonderful it is to be an adult.you can do everything.but somehow
i start to hate it. responsibility.. works... consequences...

honey oh honey... madu madu.

2010-01-15T01:09:00.003+08:00

This where the journay start.
we were suppose to get our ass in school and start practicing for our FTL.

but, it seems there is a calling "a nature calling" a sense of craving towards ayam penyet.

so therefore, clicked! i sent a message ,and in a split second a call back ringed.

what a TELEPATHY we have... LOL

went to orchard with our not so prepared clothes,make up and touch up (so bimbo)

and even best.. "honey's eyeshadow wasnt done properly or more to one side faded

the other side not yet faded" making her look like she just got beaten up. HAHA

ayam penyet .WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..

THUMBS UP!! CHILI!! THUMBS UP!!
we both ate so fast and honey kept humming "hm..nice.." and smiled.

erryerr... hahahahahhaa

WOMAN'S LAND . WOHOOOoo..shopping spree. or should we say

window shopping instead? because we didnt bought much. LOL

ah huh...honey trying heels that turned out to be her present.

she is god damnit happy! LOLOL.

she goes like " are you serious? are you serious?" lol.

*im so glad u are happy.hihihihihi* mission accomplished.!

see the candid photo of such a serious expression to express our

serious LOVES OF SHOES. omg!

does it freak you out? IT DOES .. to both of us. and we were laughing after that

over our own bimbo-tics action. lol.

honey get so amused by this wonder bra. SO CHEEKY..! lololol

this friggin shoes COST 950$ . WTF RIGHT? seriously..

and its so heavy..

trust me ..dog get killed if you try to throw and aim it at them.
no kidding!!

failed to be mafia. epic..

clasic moment. ITS SO classic it made me wanna laugh.

and the worst part. ... WE ARE SO FAT! OMG OMG OMG OMG HONEY!LOLOLOl

the end of two wonderwoman who behave like a secondary kid and act like a tourist.HAHA

fun fun..lagi lagi lagi...

ps herculen called herculen for a reason.therefore,be strong.because im here for you.

$%^&

2010-01-10T00:52:00.011+08:00

im feeling

#$@%#$^$&*^&(^&(@34@#$@#$$%^^^**

i miss

you,

baby.

things will be so much easier when you are around.

2010.

2010-01-03T00:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE.

its 2010 people !great 2009 has passed.
it doesnt go waste i suppose though i still think 2009 still pretty fresh in my mind.
it was like just sometimes a go that i read Kahsing's 2008 resolution. LOL
dont ask me why its Kahsing?!
i supposed his resolution was the most interesting ive read.

ANYWAY,-
thanks godness my 2009
i ve met a real great new people,i ve made a real great friends,
i ve working towards my "liken", and,-
last but the most importantly, i m still in a great journey with my baby.

*baby,thank you for throughout this journey im with you.*
*there is so much to tell you, and there is so much to be told about how great you are.*
*therefore, i ll just cut it short and say i love you.*

thanks to these wonderful people:
lyn,lesner,mirucky,sharon,jasminie,nic,aho,dahpne,alextay,
kel,cok2,d,sharifah,shaqilah,nora,my dear sister lice, alexchan,
cheryl,felicia heng,cheryl seng,sarah,miaoxin,tricia,robin teh,kahsing,
tyron,jacky,melisa,rachi,baoxin,meme.
especially dearest xiaomei,rui,connie and honey.

thank you for making a positive impact in my life.

some i forgot to mention.i m sorry about that!im really sorry
i wanna make a point to remember and thanks them for the concern,times,laughter,and
avaiblity when i need someone to lean on. THANK YOU THANK YOU. :)
suddenly too shy to talk about it..

btw,i dont have a resolution. lol.

i just have a wishlist :

to be healthy.and baby to be healthy.
i can pass my PRCP with a real good marks.
i can join FTL with honey with a smooth journey.
i can join a competition with a great group of people and work closely with each other.
to be able to spent all baby's free time togeher.
to be always lucky.
i wish my family to be better.really...

lastly but not least, i wish all my wonderful friends have a great journey ahead,
their sadness will soon become hapiness, healthy, and to be able to fulfil their wishes.

there is always a forever wish which is to be forever with you baby. :)
gooffyynight people.

styleFORtry.

2009-12-23T18:37:00.007+08:00

Yay, i know i just update my blog like last night !!
Still i m going to update it a lil since i m pretty free. :smiley face:
since BABY who is suppose to reach by afternoon not yet known the status.

Bear with me because u gonna see a thousand of my pretty face.LOL!!
..last night i was watching "a japanese make up style". so inspired..
and not to forget to mention i curl my short hair which look retarded now.
HAHA! BUT ITS OKAY~ after some twist, it goes well. :)

TOLD YOU.GOT ALOT OF MY FACE.
hahahahahaHAHAHAHA

finnale, baby is already on the way. and kimmi also reaching yewtee.

so will meet baby,kimi,ronie together in yewtee for dinner.

CIAOZz~

meanwhile,you guys can enjoy this.
im still in love with this movie after
going to be a year. *dreamy look*

Waiting For The Time

살며시 두눈을 감으면 / salmyeoshi dununeul gameumyeon
어느새 내게 떠오르는 / eoneu sae naege ddeo(h)oreuneun
그렇게도 잊고 싶었던 /geurohgkedo itgo shipeotteon
너를 부르는 나의 노래 / neoreul poreuneun naui norae
기억하고 있니 우리 함께 했던 / kieokhago itni uri hamgge haetteon
행복한 시간들을 / haengbokhan shigan deureul
기다릴수 밖에
없는 난 / kidarilsu pakke eopneun nan
아무말도 할수 없는 난 / amumaldo harsu eopneun nan
널 바라보면 눈물이 흘러 / neol parapomyeon nunmuri heurreo
사랑할수 밖에 없는데 / saranghalsu pakke opneunde
잊는것보다 아픔이 내게 더 쉬운데 / ineungeotpoda apeumi naege deo swiunde
돌아와 줄 수 없는거니….. / dorawa jul sun opneungeoni ♬
말없이 널 보내야
했던 / maleopshi neol ponaeya haetteon
그 자리에 넌 다시 서있어 / geu jarie dashi seoisseo
조금씩 멀어져 가던 / jogeumssik meorojyeo gadeon
널 바라보며 흐르던 눈물 / neol parapomyeo heureudeon nunmul
이렇게 변함없이 차가운 계절은 / ireohge pyeonhameopshi chagaun gyejeoreun
다시 찾아왔지만 / dashi chatawajiman
기다릴수 밖에 없는 난 / kidarilsu pakke eopneun nan
아무말도 할 수 없는 난 / amumaldo harsu eopneun nan
널
바라보면 눈물이 흘러 / neol parapomyeon nunmuri heurreo
사랑할 수 밖에 없는데 / saranghalsu pakke opneunde
잊는것보다 아픔이 내겐 더 쉬운데 / ineungeotpoda apeumi naege deo swiunde
돌아와 줄 수 없는거니… / dorawa jul sun opneungeoni
밤세워 기도한 그 한마디 / pamsewo kidohan geu hanmadi
내게 돌아와줘 / naege dolawajwo
기다릴수 밖에 없는 난 / kidarilsu pakke eopneun nan
아무말도 할수 없는 난 / amumaldo harsu eopneun nan
널 바라보면 눈물이
흘러 / neol parapomyeon nunmuri heurreo
사랑할 수 밖에 없는데 / saranghalsu pakke opneunde
잊는것보다 아픔이 내겐 더 쉬운데 / ineungeotpoda apeumi naege deo swiunde
돌아와줄수 없는거니… / dorawa jul sun opneungeoni
내 눈물이 다 마르기 전에 / nae nunmuri da mareuki jeone
내 그리움 이 나를 떠나기 전에 / nae geurium yi nareul ddeonaki jeone
나의 노래가 닿을수 있길…. / naui noraega daheulsu igil

english version
Quietly closing my eyes, I see in front of me What I once tried so hard to forget
Yours and mine, the song Do you still remember What we experienced together?
Those happy times? I can only wait I can say nothing Watching your tears flow
We can only love each other Compared with the pain of regretting you
This is easier Can you not return to my side?

I should have quietly let you go As I stood at that place again
Looking at you walking slowly away Silently crying
In such a cold season Even if you return once more

Give thanks to the holly God.

2009-12-22T23:32:00.005+08:00

so lets make it forever.let us grow together and build a family that
filled with loves,happiness, and faith with essence of trust,loyality and faith.

as human get gredier,their eyes blinded by black fog. and there goes happy home. affairs, unhapiness, dissatifaction and bla bla bla........

***
Current life,news about my dear bf aka bff will be sent to Brunei for 2 weeks.
I suppose some will find it fine to pass 2 weeks
without their pilar around uncontactable.
They can just keep everything inside them.I suppose i cant.

However,let see it in the brighter side,-
this a great way to let us grow together, in addition a lesson to be more independent.
moreover, strengthen our love,and faith.

***

ps:
thank you love for your lovely msg.
i cant think of any reason for not being contented with my life.
i wanna see you soon lovelove :)

i cant thank God enough to send me such angels.

my babyboy, my dear friends,my brother,my mom.

Thank you daddyGod!

side track:

in order to be irreplacable.
one must always be different.
for example : while everyone is walking in the same direction,
if you feel its not quite right,you need the courage to walk in the oopposite direction.
if you have a dream, it should give you courage.
only that kind of person create a new path.if you trully wish to be that person
you need to prepare to be alone.

-coco chanel

how many people actually have the courage to be different?

by the way,i just realize variety technologies are so convinience nowadays.

3 persons ask me the same question in three different way of communication means.

one on the phone,one on the msn, while another one by msg.

anyway,anyhow HAPPY BDAY DEAR MIAO.:)

MAY GOD ALWAYS BLESS YOU

LIKE HE ALWAYS BLESS ME. :))))

lonely.

2009-12-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

its time where you sometimes feel lost.
lonely.alone.tired and frustated.
and rain makes you feel cold and worst in some point.

when you just cant stop sputter sparks...
but deep down those sparks are just simply frustation because
you cant just being more truthfull that,-
missing is the hardest part in the moment and how lonely i felt.

on the side note:
i misses my friends..my dear friends so much,-
it felt so long since we met talk and chat.
the worst part,i ve got no strength to carry on those activities.even i
want to.

its those times you ll remember,
how waking up beside you and cuddle seems to be the best cure.

i suppose i have been hard on myself and drown in stress.
family and its drama.work and its society. seems to drain my energy.
im sorry it seems that i vent it on you.

DAY without words.

2009-12-14T20:00:00.004+08:00

happy BIRTHAY RACHELLLrachrach. sexay hottey coolie poplie. may all your wish come true ! *smiley*

BELOW PHOTO TAKEN IN RACH RACHEL BDAY. THE RETARD KIND.

thousand pieces of baby and me. HAHAHAHAHAa. ugly but i like^*

TITLE. RETARDS SPEC. ITS COOLS YO! come on admit it.

i ve got not much words.

as u can see this is part of my creativity,dont ammend it as narccism.

not out of boredom,actually abit la abit la..

anyway,COOL.

goodnight world.

ps baby recover well,u got to do ur own wound dressing while you are inside.

gambateeh.muacks.anata,daisuki suki suki suki~

its called autistic.

2009-12-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

its kinda super late.ah huh.
but super HAPPY BIRTHAY TO dear FE.

thank you cheryl for introducing me to those girls.
they are such a wonderful girlfriends and people not to forget to mention
PRETTAYYY,HOTTIE, AND SO COOL like hwang"
haha..oh ya also DRUNKARD. idiot~ lol!

its fun to hang around you guys. waliew..again againn~
okay not this wednesday la fee.. bo lui le

psst met with sharon yesterday,but i couldnt recall anything interesting
because i was super dead and she is too. im so sorry sharon!

Life has been revolving with PRCP right now.
i am kinda fascinated that i actually enjoy it so much.
perhaps, it just the starting but i really hope my motivation not going to die off.
apart from this fascinating world,
im kinda fucktap with the "broke" syndrome. arRGHhh..god damn it!

nothing much for now.GOODNIGHT WORLD.:)

God do take care of my beloved baby. amen.

narcissism.

2009-12-04T03:19:00.002+08:00

FUCK MY INTERNET CONNECTION JUST PURELY FUCK TARD!

AND I VE GOT TO RE WRITE EVERYTHING I VE JUST WRITTEN.

FUCK !im so lazy.

cut it short.

i met with Cheryl these few days. fun.

i love meeting with Mike after so long finnally we catched up with each other life. fun.

i love my oldies buddies.

ps: baby,we will be fine. you will be fine because im your pilar. we are pilar for each other.

you ve got to know noone can be the way you are. and thats what i love about you. i hope my msg cure your insecurities as much as it cures my own insecurities.i have faith in us.

list to do :

*learn how to cook

*learn how to be dilligent

*learn how to stop scolding vulgarities such as nabei nabu cheebyee

(restricted to fuck only as it is less ahlianish)

GREAT JOURNEY of the 28.

2009-11-30T19:45:00.009+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVESARY to us.

i know xiaomei going to comment "happy anivesary.."

Agreat happy annivesary to both of us. it was a great and a blast day. seriously! i swear.

i love it to the bits. we woke up early in the morning to go wild wild wet.

wohoo.. we finnaly did it!!!

Many cute and funny incidences occurance such as baby who didnt wanna to admit that
he was the one who said this place called "WOW WILD WET". argHh! And me, who is so eager to be the one facing upfront in the "slide up" and i was freaked out and instead of enjoying the ride, baby was laughing uncontrollably. and okay i forgot how much more (the funny thing i mean)

okay,did u see the sign of ularlah??

that is the first ride we took. and we went in separately. one by one.sound creepy.

but the most creepy part, the moment i got in ... i scream SO LOUDLY.

u know why? i was like " WHY THE FUCK THE WHOLE PLACE SO DARK?!!!!!!!"

i cant see anything,i was so afraid im gonna die any moment inside.im serious!!!

until when i reached downstair, the security guy kept asking me "Are you okay?"

so i was like BABY IT WAS SO DARK INSIDE!!! he was like " ya.. " i was like "wtf u din tell me?"

then he laughed and as usual " come on baby..lets get in again." ... PSSzzz!

so i ran up to the next ride, which was higher then ularlah.

nothing much happening as i couldnt see much as my back was facing the ride.-_-"

but its kinda scary when i felt a fast bumping on my side, it felt like i almost fly from

my seat.

this is just a random picture.i didnt went here. haha..

too many children around.

i swear the whole journey of this skyride, i was leaning to baby side.

we started out fine. baby said " lets chase up to those person in front."

i was like " okay !! " and so we dashed. halfway when we were outside

where by the swimming pool under us,

i was like "OHU OUWwww.... baby slow down!! it feels like the ride slanting to my side."

AGAIN !!! ... baby laughed. WTH wtf!

cool la baby ... you can take just the OK RIVER so zun - ly.!!

AH huh..we on the way to plaza singapura for our MADE GIFT adventures.
i thought i would take photo of us busy making "things" for each other.

but both of us ended up TOO BUSY.

but i glad we love each other made-gift! ARENT WE COOL BABY?

which couple had it seriously? i mean ... this kinda of event...who sial who sial?

oops..maybe have...! HAhaha. but so far no one in my circle of friends. COOL

ta da.... from me for baby. PRETTY RIGHT?

ta da.. from baby for me. pretty right?

ESPECIALLY the idea of the glowing star (in the dark) which

enable me to see our faces at the bottom of glass. :))

fresh sial!

incase u cant see the drawing..

the 1st cloud written "look look"
the cloud that has love fall (like rainfall)
"happy 21st cum 2 years 4 mths anivesary"
its like so baby to write such an uglam ROMANCE sentences.
but i like...:):):):)

We headed to ps cafe for dinner. It was a yummy! a serious yummy yummy!
food with a great wine. BEST! i love red wine.

ahhh... i forgot to take picture of the suprise letter i made for you.DAMN it.

but even so, yes.. i glad u love it, and oh ya.. the song that i made for you ....

i know its kinda short but haha.. UR ALMOST TEARY EYES great!!!!

DATE SUCCEDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wohooooooooooooo..... *jumping around*

yes..i will be laughing and smiling whenever i read this post again.

because here states our happines to be with each other.

so as to say "zuto zuto ishioni shinumade"

EXCITEMENT.

2009-11-25T17:59:00.006+08:00

let me start with
great job juniors for the lunch perfomance.
i startled a lil for the rehearsel as it was a real mess. and i was like omg OMG omg.
but man..i should have known better to have better faith on you. im so soryy :((
BUTTT the lunch break was a total difference scene as what i saw during the rehearsel.
thank GOD! AND its great!! goodjob... pad everyone. "grin"

***

it was a complete boredom for the past 2 days.
apart from playing basketball with ronnie & jh which is always been fun.
(kimmi missed the fun. screw you..)
i love you guys... as always~
so apart from that, i was in complete 4 walls room and watched drama all the way.
how pathetic can it be? come on....

however, the great thing
i ve got to catch up with old friends throughout the world.
its fun, and i guess its kinda the ever ever LONG email i ve ever enter.
*Japan, Lemberg, Florida ,Seattle , not to forget those long lost friend in Indonesia,-
i suppose this is gonna be a great investment if i am going to open a business. a HUH!

***

anyway, i kinda think baby and i have a great luck.
as in we always get to maximize or even to able to celebrate our plans together.
somehow rather...

its like :
i ve got holiday when he just ended him bmt. {so just nice}
baby got MC for a week and we could celebrate our 2nd yaer anniv {so just nice}
-we thought we would not be able to but we ended up celebrating because of the mc.-

i m having 2 weeks break and he going out this thursday. <again, so just nice>
alot more seriously.
thus i really think he and i are the luckiest couple ever together. :))))))
"big grin"

pray it always stay that way..thank God. i love you daddyGod.

ahuh!so on 28/11/2009,-
daddyGod please let our plan run smoothly.
our first ever plan dates to celebrate our monthly annivesary.
i hope the weather its just nice no rain not to hot.
i hope the transportation going smoothly.
i hope both of us enjoy the celebration.
i hope NONE OF OUR SUPRISES GET CAUGHT BY EACH OTHER.

this is the most important one.

we are lucky as a couple yes but so lucky that

we always spoilt each other suprises.

aRGhh...

i hope we are healthy and not tired that day.
EVERYTHING PLEASE BE PERFECT. thank you DaddyGod.
amen..

ps: ahh..im excited to see bro too tonight. AND baby tomorrow. yes arh! GOOD LA..

good afternoon going to evening everyone.ENJOY UR NIGHT.buayy~

BTW, its still monochrome for you. please do support ya! buy the CD ALBUM allright?!

thanks Mirucky,this song pulls me back to what i used to take granted off.

monochrome for you.

2009-11-23T23:26:00.003+08:00

dedicated to ,-
HEY DEAR FRIENDS, HATERS , and all the people who read this. please do support my dear friend and his group which call "MONOCHROME". they are releasing an album and so im just gonna let you all taste a lil of whats song gonna be inside. i know u gonna love it :))) like i do.

Ill Remember - Monochrome

its so peacefull down here.its so wonderful and fascinate me so much

that i fall asleep.

thank goodness.

music something i left for so long,but yet it never leaves me.

it provide me with the comfort and love that is so irreplaceble.

when you took a step back one or two, you ll see thing more clearly. its not about what you choose that affect you,its about what you have become and how you think about it.

lovey dokey lovey?

2009-11-22T23:57:00.008+08:00

greatywittie..

say hellwhat?

im so not in the mood to write.perhaps, get a hell outta sick of writting for the past 2 weeks.

yesh..im so sorry dear darling baby that i ve got to admit it.but ITS NOT really about the laziness but more on the convinince "LIKE COMPUTER" u know?

we are not a computer retard u see..!~

oh well, im just kidding -) i love writing such sweety little pie cutey little poney.

you know what i meant? how it rhymes to each other .. ouww cutey..~

tell me HE CUTEY OR WHAT..~cant believe it.:)

LOVE & LOVED.

2009-11-16T13:12:00.005+08:00

ps:seriously i think she is damn sexy.with tt shades n the pout.

YO.wonder how long it was since i blogged.

actually there is no need to wonder since i can just see.

OKAY,DOKEY im so lame right now!!

ANYROAD (coming from anyway~) , im so contented with my life.

seriously? how long since i ve felt that way.

and i mean HOW MANY people are like that?

"They think they are better if they done this surgerey."

"They think they are fat but actually they are like so goin to be anorexia."etc

they ve got really lots and lots of unsatisfying needs.

for now,

i have really great friends around me.

though i ve got so many haters who bitch about me too.

but yes...

with just a combination of

really great friends + baby = satisfying.infact Wonderful.

so im so happy about that. :))

***

on the friday,

firstly,get a chance to dance. life after A DECADE.

secondly xiaomei stayed over my house.

so its great, finnaly got chance to spend time with her..

romantic horx xiaomei~~ we were walkin under the rain. sleep -
with the tempting soft red light , with those rossy decorations. unfortunately,
its only hangin one side of the wall,
if only its hanging on the wall of the whole room.

i thought i will spend the first night with that light with baby.

i didnt expect the light will be spent together with you instead.haha

but anyway i love the night.

***

on the saturday,

day get a lil boring. and gone wasted a lil bit.

went to school at 9am. went to alex house after that.

watched half sopaholic and zombieland.

shopped and spent 8$ ++ which i think retardedly cheap

list of what i bought :
10 pieces of hanger.
1 perfume.YA believe it. (its not a small one btw)
4 packs of wet tissue.*lavendar smell*
1 box of timtam chocholate.

recently,i get a lil naughty than usual with no baby around.

i ve been eating chocolates.

get migraine-> pump medicine. baby will be so mad.

and spent the rest of the night at kel's house.

-ps: and i lost 7 dollar. zZz. wtf?! (playing mahjong)

***

oh the sunday,

spend with the cut that is high. though not everyone was there.

cok was busy wit his project. and shar i ve got no idea what she was doing.

so, anyway it was fun.

d is so forever bimbo.kel is so forever iritating.love is forever so lovely. LOL

but i meant not the movie because its horrifying!!

we watched "paranormal activities".

seriously, it sux to the max man! all the dizziness feeling , vomiting feeling

i will not want to get through that again.

anyway, we shopped around at the night.

and i bought cool shades & lovely top. *BIGG GRIN*

OKAY STORY END.

Ist it great to love and to be loved? :):)

lts talk about all the great friends around.

2009-11-11T23:20:00.006+08:00

YAY MAN.. lets talk about the 2nd day of my celebration.
i celebrated with my these 2 dearest friend. lets save the crap and mushy part.
u guys heard it alot from me anyway. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
"I LOVE YOU" !! AND MAN..we eat a big feast.

***

THIRD CELEBRATIOn with my loviest.
my greatest ever have one. its great when it comes to them.
there is no need to behave like u are the prettiest woman on earth,
there is no way they going to say "man...u are hopeless.."
they are just great. wonderfully great.
you know sometimes words are not enough to describe such loves.

the great present of sexy sophicasted top from hazel. and ipod shuffle from kimi&ron.
guys thank so much. i mean seriously..no word to express my love to you.LOLOL.
by now ron gonna say "igh..go away. dont stay near me."
-rolled my eyes-

***

hey darling,im so glad u took a time to spend my birthay.
though it wasnt a grand one,and as usual it just a simply a short time period.
but i really enjoyed all the catching up and all the great stories u told me :)
and u are unreplaceable.

thanks for the beautiful great light flower which gonna bring such
a romantic ambience just like how you are. so tempting..hihi..
its seriously beautiful!! even sharon says so,and sarah says so.
im sure baby gonna love this :)))))

and yes..thats the dolphin puzzles i made 2 years ago.
finnaly i put it in the frame.LIKE FINNALY?!

ps: you are just so great in taste. :))

***

this is the combination of hazel's jasmine's bao's sharon's (big present) kimi&ron 's
coicidentally jasmine brought top that i almost wanted to buy few days back.
lucky me... HAHA!

TODAY,I I DEFINATELLY had so much fun eating sushi
with baoxin,jasminie and sharon!! seriously LEO-PARD.
and how seriously jasminie BROUGHT so much laughter /
how cutee bao will react to THINGS / and crazily sharon who
always gigle and gigle and gigle. its so contagious!!
and THE KILLER wasabi always make my head go crazeeeeee
i just love it man!
but not the part u all sing the happy birthay song in the middle of nowhere!

seriously so long since i meet bao!!OMG friggin so long.
but anyway, lets have another round of THOSE !! its so funnnn
haha...THANK youuuuuuuu~

photos are taken by jasminie, i ve got no idea when she gonna upload it though.
but not today i supposed since she got to finish up her projects tonight.
and some of course with our camwhore queen. hihi "Sharon"
okay..im getting too excited.
i think i better get some rest! :)))))
HAPPY.HAPPY HAPPY.HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

they tick those box with seriously funny answer.haha.. i couldnt stop
smiling like a retarded woman in the mrt. ZEN SHE AR NI MEN !!!! LOL
**
beautiful?? THIS DOLPHIN SERIOUSLY SUPER BEAUTIFUL
THANK YOU SHARON.!!!!!! and
i felt so bad u spend so much !! but man..dont worry.....
IM FRIGGIN IN LOVE WITH IT.SERIOUSLY.....
I can sleep with it too! HAHA!

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a moment.
in every laughter i have.
it reminds me of you.
it reminds me of those happy time i have with you.
great laugh that we always have.
jokes that only we share. games that only we both know.

i miss you so much baby.

"Life never will be complete without you " we said.

i ll pray for your safety and health.

be well baby.be strong baby.

till we meet again.

GOod night baby...

GOOD NIGHT WORLD.people.LOVES.haters. just everyone.

HAPPY 21TH bday christie armita

2009-11-03T00:09:00.005+08:00

HAPPY FRIGGIN 21th FIRST BIRTHAY TO ME!!

Great!!im now older! sigh.. more wrinkles to come. more havoc to come.
but oh well... i love it the way it has been. through ups and downs life taught so much.
im suppose to get sleep like NOW?! my friend was already dozed off since
an hour ago and here i am still writing a piece of wonderful day that just passed.

GREAT PEOPLE, not a really great place BUT GREAT FOOD making it A BLAST.
thank you everyone who came all the way for me. and leave such a great wonderful
memory in my heart.and sharon u finnaly made me cry.-_-
further photo refer to xiaomei's facebook.:)

its the lil present given by them. isnt it really sweet?i mean look at it.

at night sarah was saying "christie,ps ar..nv buy you present.you know im saving
money."
sarah and miao2 were like "sorry ar..christie we never buy present
for you."

so but.. they failed to lie.

BECAUSE I KNOW THEY BOUGHT ME SOMETHING!<3

you see..how thoughtfull and sweet!

even the plastic bag and wrapping paper has doplhin in it.and its blue btw.:)

so anyway, here is what is inside. pretty ! "winking vigorously"

this is what i ve got from xioamei.a bag full of candies.
i mean everyone can buy it anywhere anytime.

but the warmth behind it that really counts. HORX XIAOMEI HORx

ps:very hard to get mushy with her.she will think im lesbian.I AM. HOW HOw how?!

YAY!

this from kell and love.WOHOOoo..it adds into my beloved's family.

and see how the box making the bottle look so magnificient.HOLYSHIT!!

lets talk about this pinkish sweetish box.it talks about girl" and sexy rarw..

such an inoncent looking box.

LETS TAKE A LOOK WHAT IT CONTAINS?!

A MASK,A HAIR VITAMIN,A NAIL VITAMIN,A BLACKHEAD REMOVAL

LOLIPOP(I LOVE LOLIPOP) AND DUREX.wth...durex!!

proudly present by my dear shaq and honey. :)))

this is a vest that coicidentally matching with tric's present.GREAT!

its simple but yet so sophisticate. thank you diane and daphne.:) <33

tricia still complaining
"after 3 years you still call me tric. SUCH A HORIBBLE NICKNAME."
i think tric is simple and easy to call.HAHA.so i just cant help it but used to it.
furthermore, U WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER ME FOR GIVING THAT nickname.
HAHAHAhahaha.

here is the prezzie given by the wonderful sexy TRIC.

beautiful elegance unique..call the shot!

last but not least. a very very touching moment.
i mean..i dont usually cry on my bday.in fact i never as far as i remembered.
YAP.it says all. not to derive further as i think its pretty redundant.

and its from the sharon the babe. very sweet of you!! :))))))))

ANTICIPATING FOR THE BIGGER PRESENT.hihihi

this is the day i celebrate my bday with my parent with baby
too.i dont take any picture though.

ps :

im so thankfull i found you.

though this is the first time i celebrate my bday without you since we are together.

but im glad you stil make me as special as it was before.

love is sweet.

GOOD NIGHT people.and im so contented now.

more celebration to go..~

its love baby..~

2009-10-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

pretty isnt it? was quite shocked that my dad bought me this.
its taylor-made *bytheway*. sweet right?
but he knew i love dolphin from his secretary. [which i thought kinda retarded.]
but oh well.. who cares! AT LEAST there is 'a thought'.

its so expensive that im so worried i lost it.
since its taylor made to start with,
not to forget to mention the diamond,the gold.
thank you dear old man.

i mean this is the ever something that i like bought by you.
not because of the price. but DOLPHIN. man..its dolphin with love shape.
come on.. im a girl!!!!!
i mean seriously i believe you dont even know
"what colour i like ?" isnt it?
great.im so grateful now :)

second love, MAN .. THE FANCY BY ANNA SUI.
OMG!do somehow you know im a perfume fetish?
yes.. my eyes was sparkling and too happy to be true.
and it just add to my PERFUME FAMILY.
in memorial -rest in peace my franc oliver and kenzo.-

the family of pinks and purples. and a glance of the cheapo adidas.

my never ending lover.
because they the sweetest thing ur nose ever heal!

i missed the escada mini escort piece.DAMN .

bday,i wish that i will be happy on my upcoming 21th birthay.
i m facing a dissapointment aside from the wonderful gift i got.
however,i want to stay positive
because some really do care and love me just the way i am.
i ve kinda missing my dear friends...

been so long since i have a long good chat with sharon.and xiaomei.

im expecting a really hectic week up front.
i hope i got the strength to cope with.

sidenote:

bro msg me today.i was quite touched by his msg. man..

i miss the dota time.the light chit chat.

his motivational encouragement.and so ..

hope to see you soon.of course with the botaq head.

and not to forget to mention my baby darling beloved.hihi

till here,-
good night

impurity making it perfect.

2009-10-25T20:28:00.004+08:00

GOD WHO NEVER LEAVE THEIR KID.

crazily days.

2009-10-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

ROOMATE MADNESS.

LAZY shitytishyitt~

im kinda not in the mood to write because im friggin tired.seriously?!

i have been so sleepy always. should i go dance tomorow?HMm

animosity

2009-10-19T00:29:00.002+08:00

Jelously.pretentious.fakeness.cuning.insecurities.biased.uncontented.evil
thought.backstabbers.hypocrite.be someone's friend and use her for their own
advantage.

Just stop being a hater and be a lover.

will the beautiful crafted proverb be able to cover all the shameful facts of human nature?

Let's stop here and take a break.

+++***+++

Back to reality...
Attachment kills me tremendously.
Note : manners.
Been MIA.I know I know. I'm sorry guys. I ve been rejecting all the meetin up with my dear friends.

This week finnaly will b able to meet up with xiaomei.
"Ah e sweet thingy.. " @gigle@

Ahh.. I gotta make time for the rest of friends that been persistently askin me to go out!!
"Aight aight.. Wakaru!go me yuki chan.eto..riki chan."
Shashiburi detsune.....!!

Andd I hope friday kimi hazel ronnie and me will be able to catch up with each other.
Mahjongg.. Mahjong..
I kinda addicted.oh no !

Still counting down..
Janedarling.... Honey... Love..sharon..so on..sigh!

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Love side :
Baby and I decided to keep a journal(more like a diary).
We ll take turn to update it week by week.
Kinda excited ~

Oh and and ...
The album I was sugesting to baby seems to catch his interest.
Let's see...
How our kid gonna be like next time baby!?!? Hmmmmm....
+gigle+ +gigle+

baby

2009-10-11T17:54:00.002+08:00

spent sometimes with baby after his 3 weeks confinement.
nothing really great to be said neither great fun to be shared though.
it just how we normally spent our day together.
watching horror movies, play dota, watch anime.
well not that i played,he played dota while i sat and watched.
"curse, swear and roll around the bed when we lost."
discussing why he lost? how noob teammates are?
all this stupid things that normally alot of couple dont do...

the only problem that baby body's clock set to army life style.
that he slept really early,woke up early too.
i got a problem adjusting though.
every morning, baby will drag me out from bed to eat.
then i will pull him back to sleep.
then he tried to pull himself and me to sit position.
again, i will pull him down with me.
but of course, when he started to scream ... u ve got no choice but to wake up.
rarghh..!~

the last day of my heaven and yes his heaven too...
we were rushing to get stuff for him.and
he insisted that as long as he is around , i ve got to eat proper diner.
and so be it. you know what?
we ended up rushin home carrying 6kg++ weight,prepared in 2 second.
and got into cab to his camp.WTHWTFWTTHWTF!

baby,your ill-temper when you are rushing SPELS horrendous!

a great photo taken 3 hours before the whole RUSHINGdashing occured.
i miss you again , omfg!
the way ur eyes get so red because
you dont wanna get a sleep even though u are so sleepy.
just to spend times with me.

the way you cuddled me when we watched movies.
the way you randomly hug me when we were walking.
the way you smile and tell me you love me.
the way everything happens between both of us.

honeyHONEYhoney.

2009-10-08T03:28:00.003+08:00

I can almost see it, that dream i'm dreamin but, there's a voice inside my head sayin, you'll never reach it. every step im takin every move i make feels lost with no direction, my faith is shakin, but i, i gotta keep tryin i gotta keep my head held high

there's always gonna be another mountain im always gonna wanna make it move always gonna be an uphill battle and sometimes im gonna have to lose it aint about how fast i get there aint about whats waitin on the other side its the climb

the struggles im facing the chances im taking sometimes might knock me down but no im not breaking i may not know it but these are the moments that im gonna remember most yeah just gotta keep goin and i i got be strong gotta keep on pushin on cuz

theres always gonna be another mountain im always gonna wanna make it move always gonna be an uphill battle sometimes im gonna have to lose aint about how fast i get there aint about whats waitin on the other side its the climb x2

keep on movin keep climbin keep the faith babe its all about its all about the climb keep the faith keep your faith

Whoa oh oh oh

thank you so much honey.
its like you are telling me how you feel and in the same time
telling me to be strong. i am touched.
there is noone can be the way you are :)
so sweet!!!!!!! awwwww,, omg...

i suddenly remembered i save this awhile ago .........

really SO LONG AGO i mean.

lets chase our dream. i am too almost give up.
so thank you for giving me courage.

ahHAHA..kid nowadays.

2009-10-07T19:34:00.002+08:00

i dont like you mommy.

HOT AND COLD.

dedicated to people who are as bored as i am now. im getting pretty excited.
baby coming back tomorow.YAYyyy.YAYYAAyyyy!! baby coming back.
wohooo..WHOOHOOOOOO,,~

events in life

2009-10-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

woah..i cant believe im actually finnaly gonna summarize my lots of fun days.
WELL.perhaps im not going to upload any photos here.
as my internet pissing the hell outta me!!
come on...get right stupid machine..

lets recall!
2 october 2009 .Friday
i woke up late.went to school to meet honey for a lunch.
with "NOT MUCH EATING TAKEN PLACE".
rushed down to toa payoh.
met arjuna first and continued to eve house to get my hair cut.
yes..my hair short again.but its great. thanks arjuna.
i kind of fall in love with eve's yellow toy.but i still prefer the green one.
where the head is really so friggin round!and omg!FUCKING CUTE.
that reminds me :baby head also round.
tts explain why i like to bite his head.
anyway,after cutting my hair, met up with sharon and later on xm.
but seriously xm friggin late.
so we went to eat and continued chill.
as usual if there is sharon ,there will be camwhoring sessions.
after sharon left.
me and xiaomei spent the night talking and
finnaly headed to seven met up with
"jacky,tyron,ronald,cheryl,alicia,veron and rafee"
we went to shisa too.bro joined us.
so as i were up since morning,i headed home at 4 with rafee.

I WAS LOCKED OUTSIDE.
AND MY PHONE DEAD.GREATFUCKINGDOPESHIT.
AND I CAN ONLY REMEMBER
BABY'S NUMBER AND HAZEL'S NUMBER.
SO GREAT!
I CALLED BABY AND THANKFULLY BABY IS THE BEST.
HE PICKED UP AND GAVE ME MY OWN HOUSE NUMBER.
AFTER SO I CALLED MY MOM TO UNLOCK THE DOOR.
AND I CALLED BABY WHEN I REACHED HOME.

slept then.

3rd october 2009.Saturday
met up with love,kel,kel's friend,cok,cok's gf.
deanna went missing.
and shar couldnt make it.
we went to eat SUSHI!BUFFET.GREATFUCKINGGREAT.
i love them to the bits. its always fun to have them around.
headed to aho's bday party after that.
connie retardedly told me its gonna take about an hour to reach aljunied.
but actually not even 15 min!!fucking hell...
made me wait..~
bumped to rongxin&alex.so they joined me to wait for sharon.
after sharon came,
ive got no idea but all i knew..
ALL OF US IN THE END WAIT FOR xm,ronald,tyron,jacky.

aho's bday was a blast.had alot of great fun.

i rushed to baby's home and the rest continued the night.
i slept over at his house
as his mom and me gonna drove to baby's camp the next morning.

4th october 2009.Sunday
woke up at 6,got ready and drove there.
man...i was so friggin friggin friggin excited just like baby.
baby ran down to greet me and his mommy.
he was so damn happy just like we do.
we chatted,ate together and he walked us to the car.
his mommy drove me home.
i slept for awhile.
at night, i was so friggin bored.
played dota and kept losing.so in the end
me and bro decided to go and watched movie.
i took off early,walked around alone,bought shoes.
wanted to get a dress too,but i was injured by it so notsogoing to buy it!!!
was on the phone with baby..
told baby , i goin to watch movie with bro, and he was like "Though och?"
i was like wth is that? after bro came,
i found out he was msging with baby too.
coz he was like "we go Och on boh?". i thought baby so dope.
but he actually quite dope.

imagine.. he just told me
"baby dont get urself hurt or injured okay?! take care of urself."
the next moment i injured because of the dress zipper.

SO ANYWAY IN THE END WE WENT TO OCH "old changi hospital"
which famous for the cage of ghosts.im the only girl.
of course before that went home changed to shoes.
so will be able to run incase anything were to happen.
bro,jacky,tyron,ronald and djingga. retard shit.
i am a girl,so supposingly i must be in the middle because middle is the safest
but instead im at the back -_-" with bro.
bro kept asking me am i allright
when i kept thinking "Actually i m feeling friggin hot."
it wasnt as scary actually.
we went to eat after that.and the guys talked about stupid shit.
until i went #%%^*(.
home sweet home.

5th october 2009.Monday.
went to drink to yello jello.
i supposed to meet bro at clark quay but i took a wrong train to his area instead
so met him at yishun and we didnt know that the train we took was last train.
and its terminated at toa payoh.retard shit.
so we cabbed down to yello jello.
met up with xm,alex,veron,tyron,ronald n djing. and started rituals
when it closed,we continued to djing's house.
kinda forgotten what happened after.
i was kinda high actually.
i only knew when we went home ,it was raining.
cabbed home with ronald.ran upstair to vomit and slept.

6th october 2009.tuesday
WOKE UP LATE again to meet momyy to do pedimedi.
walked around bugis after that.
accompanied her shop around with 1/2 watts eyes.

*finnaly i can summarize the whole events."PHEWWwwwwwwwwww
This a memory.a great memory.
i think i will kind of feeling lost when bro get in to army.
because noone to pei me liao...
no more dota liao..SIAnz.
but fortunately, baby coming out tt day .and my attachement is next week.
so i supposed i am okay.

i miss baby alot.alot alot alot alot

a happy tulalit day

2009-10-01T03:45:00.003+08:00

IM VERY VERY HAPPY TODAY.serious!!!
actually its not really a big deal. i mean im still like spending a normal day.
a simple plan.really really simple...

morning,i woken up by baby's msg.
he msged in such a funny hour and always acted angry that i didnot reply.
or doing on purpose like " lets do this bla bla bla together?"
and OBVIOUSLY its not yet my time to wake up "duh".
so he continued his msg "i take it you dont want.so the event is off."
What the FUNK!!????? but of course , its really just a prank.
but yea its kinda making me nomatterhownomatterwhat i must wake up.

continue on,i sent my dad to harbour front and left to doctor
soon after my dad board his ferry.
the medicine he gave me previously, totaly has no effect on me.
infact,it got worse...
every morning i woke up, my hand got totaly numb and no strength.
it feels like A THOUSAND NEEDLES are pocking me non stop.
anyway, the thing is the medicine get worse too.awfully awful.
i ve got to eat a capsule(4 pieces) . imagine?! 4 FRIGGIN PIECE.
and 30 mls of something which omgtasteomg.
anyway,then after..rush back home to prepare. and go to woodland.
ate alone in KFC, and a phone ring while i was washing my hand...

sharon caalled me.
here is the convo :
"i cried seeing ur blog. all ur fault la..somemore the song so emo."
i was like "WAT?!!wtf u call me just to scold me this."
then she laughed while i stunned.
omg.. HILARIOUS
SHIT!hahahaahaha...

so after hanged up, i ran up to the platform as i almost missed my train.
met with bro in yishun platform,
later on juna,eve,jeremy,and lukeman at lavendar.
its pretty fun..i mean i get a lil K ... either not used to it or body rather rusty.
but man..the song sound damn cool and i feel i fucking cool.
HAHAHAHAHAHA

after that chill ..
ate fondue.. "yes fondue"
i think thats explain why i damn happy.
bcause i dont normally have a freedom to eat fondue.
then all of us just keep laughing and laughing.
forgotten whats so funny.
but all i could remember ...
"grape was sour, the orange thingy fruity damn nice with chocolate."
man.. this taste going to be lingering around my tounge for awhile.
i will remember!
because idont get much chance to eat such thing.

here comes the most hillarious moment of the day...
bro : how to go back to mrt ar..
lukeman point on the right,
juna point on the left,
and eve point the road in front of us....
then all of us burst into laugh again.

thats the end of the wonderful today.

ps : honey honey.. :)

i think this simple message mean alot.

**********
mondayBLUE.in the red spot.

A delayed updation.
went out to accompany sharon to study.
but this naughty lady. instead of studying, she kept distracted.
camera, yogurt and so on so on.
SO IN THE END, we watched phobia2.
which i think not scary and its a friggin waste of pennies.
anyway, it was hilarious at the end.
i wonder why ...
almost every our outing, i dont get enough sleep the day before.
and causing a really iritating feeling of tiredness.
i seriously going to get well rested the next time we met.
so without further do "GET STUDY SHARON STOP READING!"
**********

It tooks alot courage for me to get back on my feet.so dont harm me.

i nv been so happy to have you.

2009-09-28T03:55:00.007+08:00

everyday is so wonderful, then
suddenly, it's hard to breath
now and then I get insecure, from all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
words
can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
yes words can't
bring me down
so don't you bring be down today

To all your friends
you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
trying hard to fill the
emptiness, the pieces gone
left the puzzle undone, is that the way it is

no matter what we do
no matter what we say
we're the song inside
the true, full of beautiful mistakes
and everywhere we go, the sun will
always shine
and tomorrow we might awake on the other side

-written
by Linda Perry
a beautiful tunes that give a
lil hope.

i've finnaly see a light.
im still standing.
afraid to move on.
will i be allright?
baby,its great to have you.i know you will be there.
like you always do...
all those messeges that you sent, i know that noone can replace you.

thank you baby.

now i know why my life need you so badly.

SIMPLE DAY,

with

SIMPLE PLAN.
with people who dont judge me.who accept me the way i am.

oh btw i moving house again.

quality time alone.

2009-09-23T20:56:00.005+08:00

Ostracized by the people who don't get what she's going through.

Blamed herself for being not knowing how to handle the situation.

But these are merely words.
Formed by the countless thoughts and emotions entangling her mind and heart.
All contained in her, not able to let them pass.
causing inability to create appropriate actions accordingly.

it seems sadness is easier to express.isnt it?

guilty?bullshit.i dont need your pity.

2009-09-22T02:41:00.004+08:00

To whom it may concern,

it was something that caused a great dissapointment.
even you dont treat me as one of the best,but i do treat you as one.
you should know that..dont you?
or at least, the least you could do that when someone bitch behind
my back,you stood up for me.protect me from those harms, instead
you laughed at it as if im some kind of funny jokes.
is it our friendship so meaningless that you cant even do a lil favour
to show me that we are friends?

so much for ...

2 days before the whole incidence happen..
"baby,im so glad with my life.with my friends that i love
like .... , and ... so on.
having those good friends who care and accept me the way i am,
acknowledge me like that just feel great."
baby smiled and said "great, im so happy that when i wasnt around
you got those friends that taking care of you in my place."

i think im just too naive .. really too naive.

***

bitches who always bitch about people. may God bless you.

its not that you will know that how much harm you will implict

to those you harmed. but i just hope these pains that u caused will go away.

great day

2009-09-18T02:16:00.004+08:00

One (...) going down,
And then you slipped away,
One stop at a time (out of town),
We'll meet again someday.

Cause I,
I believe in love,
I still wish on,
Stars above,
I believe in love songs,
Yes, I think that they are real,
All you have to do is feel.

A chance missed for getting kissed,
I think there's so much more than this,
I will,
Guess I'll have to hold my breath and say..

That I,
I believe in fate,
I believe in good things coming to those who wait,
Although I'm anticipating late,
And all my hopes were beginning to fade,
When you will me,
How will we be,

This is only one,
Temporary find,
I'm sure before too long,
You will change your mind,
One find,
And this is only one of a many find,
I'm sure before too long,
You're gonna make up your mind.

I know all about it,
Well, I thought I did,
So I wrote a song about it,
And it goes a little something like this.

See now I,
I believe in love songs,
Yes, I think that they are real,
All you have to do, do, do,
You tell me,
All I have to do,
Say,
All we have to do,
Is feel,
Is feel,
Feel, so right,
Is feel,
Feel, so nice,
And this is so nice,
And this is so right,
And this is so right,
Right, find, and fine by me.

things been said.nailed down and leave it's mark.

the only thing can be done

holding those memerizing reminencences.

could i say i've regretted those moment of unthoughtfull?

something that bothering but not to be spoken.

because its about the unknown certainty.

i guess i m really being selfish.

im happy other than those unspoken thought.

spending lots of time with baby.

and its great to have him around.

with those "honeymoonneverendingperiod".oh..i miss u again.

dear friends,im happy to have you.:)

im so excited.dont tell you why.:)

2009-09-09T01:38:00.002+08:00

EXCITED

YES,im serious. im friggin fuckin excited!
everything yea yea!

confidence is all i need.

2009-09-08T00:13:00.002+08:00

YAYYyYYyyy
finnaly, blog goes to normal.

i ve got nothing to update.but perhaps it gonna be a very long
statement right here that im gonna post.

where do i start?

it started out with a simple how are you.it left me with so much thought.
does it even ever be so hard to talk to someone whom u thought a fren.
a year has past.i realize so much has change.
within me,with people around me.
new people come in,some do stay some dissapear.
circumstances whereby "how does it start? and how it ends?"
always been a question left unanswered.

story goes to person whom we thought bestfriend.
how many years we know each other anyway?
does it even bother you?
when a guy always be the downfall of this friendship.
*dude,you made bestfriend a bad name."

here again , i feel hopeless pointless alone and so down..
okay im kidding haha.
i was on tricia blog and i ve got no idea
why is it her blog background is like this sort off "TALKS?." and
yes it spells that sentence.

so do where i continue..
i had this sorta argument like
"why sometimes so hard for another party to understand how u feel,"
i come to a realization
every single person goes through a different maturation
with different environtment follow by different experience.
and so lucky for the person that
"he gets everything that i want it happen in my life."
and so not fortunate for me not having it.
i just wan to feel belong...
do u understand it?
this sense of belonging that i need so badly starting to erode my self esteem.

i never been so glad through the journay of highcut.
whereby i meet people whom i know i can lean on when i fall.
where i receives the love i lack.
though its pretty not smooth somehow.
However, its not gonna be something i regretted.
thank you guys.

the pilar of my support.
who always be there whenever wherever i need.
give me ur bless,love and pray.
and therefore i end it with i love you.

"it matters how you finish?"
"are you going to finish strong?"

drunken memory

2009-09-02T01:29:00.002+08:00

wind blowing pretty strong down here.
its something uncontrollable.
it strikes deep to every single part of my joints.
and causing a freat aching feeling.
Doctor said "it supposed to be old lady's ilness"
im not that old. yet i get a very rare "orthitis".
lol..sometimes...
its too special till i wonder am i that freaking special?
even my sickness is so special and rare to be cured.

oh well,
really having a great craving over beer.
dont ask me why, because im serioously not sure either.
yesterday i drank heineken..
today i drink tiger..
maybe anchor tomorrow?
im not emoing!iam in a totaly fine state.
i have great friends "though some not really"
i have great boyfriend and life for a moment
especially when it spells "holiday".

i just need to get on my feet again.
loving it again like how i used to be.
baby..and i miss u so..

my world

2009-08-21T01:40:00.006+08:00

my world revolving pretty busily i guess.
or im just purely lacking of diligency to update blog. :))

firstly,lets start talking about the chaos that had been happening at home?
it settled down. simply because they are not at home.
just me and my bro and so all in all nothing goes wrong.
perhaps second wave will come?
LORD, please no.thank you.amen.

secondly,im currently having exam.not to say struggling.but yet
quite happening.seriously happening. haha.
especially when you-know-my-bad-habit throughout the curiculum of the course.
YES, GAMBATEE DE TSU!!
AIYA..i can one lah..~

thirdly,HIGHCUTS got in heats of the suntec dance.
another "GAMBATE DE TSU!!"
been spending so much time with the peeps here.added with extra of "sha's bf"

had some issues. fire meeting wind. meeting explosion.
and CI PA BOM. hongkan..
but yes i think definately im glad it happened.

it brought me to a realization that noone could be better than them in such situation.
okay.. now everyone will start saying "wow..cieh i leh ...wahhhh..aisehh"

a bunch of crazy peeps..running everywhere like they are not AGED of 17-21
that punk each other everyday. oh bimboqueen just get punked btw.
that shouting vulgarities to each other each of everyday.
i think i come first followed by niga hair and so on.
so on and lame and shit. if its over im gonna miss it.
this is include you sha..stupid.-_-

fourthly,baby caught when on the phone with me. so and ..AH.. :((
hope he didnt get any confinement.AND baby im so friggin missin you..
your smell,your hug,your kisses, and omg i cant believe i said this
"i miss your tickle". OOops.
of course after you book out im not in the mood of missing it.HIHIHIhi

YEA YEA U CAN GO GENTING.YEA YEA !! WOHOOO!!
I JUMP FROM TOP TO BOTTOM WHEN I KNOW U ABLE TO MAKE IT.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~

fifthly,stranger.. truth. i need truth from you.
at least after the truth,perhaps it will be easier to move on....

lastlybut not the least,
babe..i know its going to be tough period for you. i really want to try
to comfort you, but its imposible for me to comfort you. because no matter what
i say will not ease any pain that u have. therefore, i lend you my shoulder and ear
and
i will be there (of coz if possible) to be the one that supporting you if you fall..
but if not.. stand up yourself.. because you are strong girl :)

SIDE NOTE. WAH ..XIAOMEI XIAOMEI. I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU.
JANE DARLING I MISS YOU FASTER RECOVER.
RUBBERSTOMACH FUCK YOU.hihihi

_note_

i suppose to arrange movie meeting with kim&ron.fuck remember.

if not im goin to get scolded.

day by day

2009-08-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

THIS IS MY FIRST and its gonna be last.
out of anger maybe?
or perhaps its going to b my definate?

maybe when it comes to dream, actions speak louder.
therefore,it doesnt match somehow.

arui you just make my day without you knowing here am i blowing the my top.
great ar! cute wor..~
anyway, baby thank you for being you.im so glad that i have you
i know you wont be able to read this.but God knows,
how im so thankfull to have you,

baby,baby..i called ur name

2009-08-08T02:05:00.002+08:00

how life end up to be for some relationship?
i've heard a thousand of sad stories.
till there is apoint i doubt a happy story.but seriously there is infact.

5 years relatiiionship fall to the drain just like a snap.
with no truth, no reason, nothin particularly.
i really have no idea who im suppose to side. leaving them to
decide.
buts its too painful in one side and too selfish for the other
side.
so much so happens within their world.
really one is being to selfish but is it really a very selfish
decision?
is it because there is spice such ignorance and unhappiness hiding
behind the scene at
those years they were an item?

recently,everything pretty hectic.
i guess since the day i decide not to think those freaking shit thing that occuring
and push it to the back of my friggin mind. YET,
it seems my frustation getting worse to WORST?!!
man... give me a break.
i cant be continuing this state..
insomnia + migraine attack all around
pretty dangerous as exams are near the corner of the month.

baby,i wish you are here.
it seems that having no news from you ALMOST 4 days now,
it gets me from the state of frustation to mental dehydration.
baby i miss you.

there is so much catch up i need to do, jane that just come back
from London this 12.meme that appear in singapore.
and i miss xiaomei.

the cut that is high,
kelv,im sory always venting myfrustation out of friggin blues.
love,that always been very very very cool, and tolerating my frustation.
i wonder if u stil love me after all this fuggin shit.
perhaps im not really being very understanding as time constrainting till
i dont even letting my butt to get stiffen in any moment in place.

project mates, that sometimes iritate the hell outta me. but yea i m glad
it ended. friends are still friends. stranger wil stay as stranger. and the rest
i dont really wanna get involved.

END OF MY FRUSTATION.let me recall since when i feel happy?
hm..perhaps,when i thought shot choreography done?
or when i see a cute lil retard kid running around the mrt pilar?
or when i finally get my allowance?

" gambatekimasu ".
if it wasnt for this......

anatano genkidetsuka?
sabishii ...
watashi wa dokushin josei no dakishimemasu detsu

if thats what youve called family.then count me out

2009-08-03T15:41:00.004+08:00

you know i come to a apoint of realization
everyone have their own business and life
so does alll my friends out there
so its so unfortunate that im all alone in the shitty shit of fuggin problematic family
and while baby away, i guess liquor always been the bad habit i m adapting.
all this while , i ve been ignoring all the stuff happen around.
i just care what goes around in my own world.
its not that i dont care,
but i also afraid that it turn back and hurt me
and affect everything in my life's circle.

how much respect i need to give you?
what you taught me in this fuggin life?
violence?liar?
and what?
all the shit you done behind this fuggin family,
what a role model
a piece of fucking shit. fucking shit.

i am always controlling emotion within me.
till the point i laugh when it sux to the bottom of my heart
i stop trying to b myself and adapt to everyone's expectation.
but what i get?
i dont even receive any recoqnisiton that i changed.

how true is this? hmmm

2009-07-22T20:23:00.000+08:00

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

midnight lonesome

2009-07-20T02:41:00.002+08:00

i, who always believe nothing is imposible admit
there is something that is imposible.

because no matter how hard you tried, you wil not be able to please everyone.
one will get hurt,another will get hurt if that one never get hurt.
the question is "i try to please everyone,am i pleased enough with what i plead or
merely just because i longed for the belonging?

its true noone teach me to give up,but noone ever teach me how to start
all i left is endless insecurities, difficulty in facing people face to face.
ackwardness when left with someone.
"what am i suppose to say next?"
"will i get laughed if i said something?"
"will they think im trying to offend them?"
"will them feel im invanding their privacy?"

why im being so emotionally affected when midnight pass?why it always endless
thoughts come by when night appears.

the worst time of the day is night because from then on you can feel the true nature of loneliness.

anatano genki de tsu ka?

2009-07-18T02:44:00.004+08:00

.. koishikute..
i know its hard
demo gambate ne anata!
because im here for you as always

of all many things i wanna said,first of all im just gonna smile and said okairi baby

rhytm drill it !!

2009-07-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

u do so much.u learn so much.
but at the end of the day if it states " you are not dancing "
mean you just failed.

baby said before there is no such thing accident.
lausy means lausy. dope means dope.

keep in mind rhytmrhytmrhytmrhytm. just dril it to your brain. rhytm!
okay im officially going crazy. oh btw jasminie stop so low-esteem leh!slap you LOL
baby i miss you so much.

i am suppose im allright

2009-07-13T23:48:00.004+08:00

gangsta says my blog always emo. lol
i think previously IS A SUPER happy post .. wonder where the emo come from.

baby took sometime to talk to me. i guess he is really worried
because he couldnt be here for me.
its pretty interesting how "missing a person" will increase the appetizer of love.
haha! i miss you you presence alot.

down with a serious iritating flu. sneezing and sneezing. hur..

a very random photo indeed.it was taken so long ago.

1.i miss my old house.

2.i just found this photo like just?!

3.i miss my hair.

4.i think the photo damn nice especially the hair effect.haha!

*if i wasnt wrong it was from sharon's camera.*

another one taken. wohoo. a perfect wierd photo ever.

1.i love all your stupid ideas

2.i again miss my long hair

3.i dont mind letting you to call me **** 1000x in exchange you are here

4.thats a perfect date.:))

hope ttomorrow will be fine.good night.

i getting depressed

2009-07-13T01:15:00.011+08:00

i know im getting emotional very easily. im sure of it
i know i got a problem with relating with people.
and i dont know how to treat my friends. and i dont even know wether
do they treat me the same the way i feel about them.

sometimes i wonder why it feels so left out?
i aint sure isit because im just purely very lausy? why am i not
the part of that ..? why am i not invited to be that ..?
why am i this and that ...
asking questions that are redundant. trying so hard to be something
yet im nothing. it sounds pathetic.

i tried so hard so i dont ended up pathetic,but it feels so pathetic
it feels just giving up. how to even talk it out?because im purely
dont know too.
why it feels so uncomfortable around people i know.people i spent my days with.
why it feels so strange to share my feelings towards things. it feels wrong
it feels something not right. it feels i talked too much. it feels i dont have e right.

over my dead body,

is it really noone
will even look at it
or pay a respect visit?

omg!

2009-07-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

instead of finishin my projects im here watching video. -_-
omg.i think im so dead.

loveydokey

2009-07-09T19:41:00.006+08:00

been so friggin goddamn long since i touch my blog.
reasonwise varied each times. *lazy* *tired* *notime* *noidea* dozens of it.

let me start with hm...
JB COMPETITION.
it wasnt a fulfiling kind, however im enjoying it so much. and im not yet regretting
i guess i will never be anyway. haha! top 8 hm..
as you can tell it wasnt good enough.so nothing to be proud of.
if you would like to see the photos, you can go to the facebook and see it.
im not gonna uploaded it here as i guess im pretty lazy still.

xiaomei's birthay.
having fun of course. but definately the rains sigh~ haha
i know i m such a late blogger as in :belated: BUT HOWEVER still
i love you okay..lets be more mushy!haha. become prettier loh,
become sexier loh, become doper loh, and yes again...
i m SO GLAD that you like the book.
wuahahahhahahaa.. you know what?
when i was choosing, i came across a book's title "why am i still single?"
and i m so tempted to buy it for you and i can guarentee u kill me
on the spot.HAHA!
man... what a night! kahsing was already like crazy bom pi pi. your
face already becoming as reddish as the tomato. that game! that game!
lets play it again next time! HAHA.
and swimming leh..we said since 3 weeks ago -_-

this is the most happiest day of my life.
nothing really special about it actually because it happens to anyone
and anywhere.i guess the sincerity and thought really counts.

out of nowhere , he bought a ring crafted it
with "ryu love christie" and our anniv date and
he wrote a message in his handphone,took my camera and took a snap.
i didnt ask him to.neither i ever dreamt that he able to do such stuff.
thank you baby it meant alot. faith come real hard nowadays however

i guess its worth it somehow. i miss you already baby.

ps: it simply just saying you meant world to me

crisis

2009-07-01T00:18:00.003+08:00

crisis strike.pretty bad.
i m starting to get paranoid over shits.
money studies futures..

everything scaring the hell shit outta me.

noted

2009-06-29T22:27:00.002+08:00

inoncent faces are horrifying

some updates.

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Extraversion	69%
Agreeableness	44%
Neuroticism	44%

im not interested in question like "are you okay?"

2009-06-22T14:03:00.002+08:00

who are you to judge?

ive said.i dont give a damn wether u trust or believe ..
everything in surface always looks so beautiful
that i feel like screaming and jump down to my death to satisfy you
bitches of life.

friends..i ve start to see a pattern of people that i called friends.
close friends good friends all narrowing down to a thing called FRIEND.
just friend..or should i make it clear that friend : stranger.

family?
is not like i ever feel like i have one..?

if you think it meants for you then be it.
i dont really care wether u mistook or misunderstood.
for once spare me from your bitchiness. plz

its your day baby.

2009-06-12T00:57:00.003+08:00

BABY happy birthay. i love you so much
because you stich my smile.
and hope i m too giving you
a countless spark of hapinness. :)

ryuta says :
THank you baby.! u are my angel of life. Without u, i dont think my
life would have up and down. (IM saying this not becoz u make me
miserable
but u make my life colourful!) THeres a lot of diff meaning in a sentence. ^^
Love u very much and thanks for all the support and love u give me.
HOHO

gyahhaha stare dreamily. shyy :)))))

***

by the way, SEXY DIAMOND is in town on the 13th june.

ah...YOU SEE RACHEL THERE DOPE AH DOPE AH. haha

tiredness

2009-06-08T15:37:00.002+08:00

unfortunate happens like a gaze ,does it? :)
like fortune , it comes by without notice too, isnt it?

trust is something i will not fight for.
listen well..
im sick and tired of people not trusting me.neither i will argue so you trust me.

how many are real outside there?

kahsingkahsing

2009-06-04T01:27:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHAY KAHSING

judgemental

2009-06-02T10:20:00.000+08:00

how words can cause misunderstanding.
how people judge without trying to be the other person shoes.
ah... OF COURSE its unfair. life ah life.

everyday we complains that people are not trying to be in the other person's shoe
before judging harshly. you think you ve tried? ALL THE TIMES? no?!
so shut up. and remember ignorance is a bliss.

***

sleepy.hungry.broke.
im glad i still have bread to survive.
TIRED.

3112 8am presentation

2009-06-01T14:03:00.004+08:00

Bowel resection=colostomy
A surgical procedure to remove the cancerous part of the descending colon.
Creating an opening between the colon and the abdominal wall.
On the left lower abdomen
Most common type of colostomy surgery and generally produce stool that is semi-formed to well-formed

(**overall surgical cure is possible in 70% of these patients
The proximal end of the colon is sutured to the skin**)

Barriers to cancer prevention and early detection
Age
Cultural
Income
Health insurance
Socioeconomic status
Inadequate and inaccurate health information
Attitudinal barriers
Dr patient communication patterns.

Summary of warning signs for colon cancer
Rectal bleeding
Change in bowel habits—persistent constipation and diarrhea.
Abdominal distention and discomfort
Difficulty or pain during defecation
Unexplained fatigue or weight loss
Bowel perforation, or bowel obstruction

(**1. Change in bowel habits. A colon cancer can cause partial obstruction of the colon leading to “holdup’ of faeces and a delay in passing motion. It can also irritate the colon resulting in frequent loose stools. In short, a person with a change in bowel habits of more than 6 to 8 weeks should consult a doctor.
2. Rectal bleeding. the most common
A rectal cancer can present with fairly fresh bleeding separate from faeces due to its proximity to the anus. It can be mistaken for bleeding from piles. Bleeding from colon cancer is usually darker and mixed with the stools. Rectal bleeding is a serious symptom and must be investigated especially in individuals above 40 years old.
3. Abdominal distension and discomfort. This is a vague symptom which can also be due to other abdominal problems e.g. irritable bowel syndrome, gallstones.
4. Difficulty or pain during defaecation. This applies to rectal cancer which obstructs the passage of faeces and considerable force is needed to pass motion. There is also a painful sensation of incomplete emptying called tenesmus due to the presence of a tumour in the rectum.
5. Presence of anaemia and weight loss. Anemia is often associated with a right sided colon tumour which has bled unnoticed for a long time (occult bleeding). Anaemia may result in giddiness, weakness & fainting spells. Significant unexplained weight loss can be often due to a serious illness e.g. cancer.
6. Presence of an abdominal mass. A right sided colon cancer can present with an abdominal mass which is uncomfortable and detected by the patient.
7. Colorectal cancer can present acutely as an emergency in two situations:

a. Bowel perforation. An advanced CRC can erode through the colon wall and cause a perforation with leakage of faeces causing peritonitis and septicaemia.

b. Bowel Obstruction. Left sided colon cancer often grows around the colon and cause total obstruction. The patient complains of constipation, abdominal distension and vomiting over a period of few days. An emergency operation is required. Both acute presentations are associated with poor survival even after treatment of the CRC.**)

rick factor
Advancing age
race
Family history
A personal history of colon CA
Inflammatory bowel disease , such ulcerative colitis
Diet in high fat and low in fiber
Obesity
DM
Sedentary lifestyle

(**What are the risk factors?
1. Males and females > 50 years old
2. Chinese has a higher risk among the races in Singapore
3. Family History
Some individuals inherit a rare disease called familial polyposis in which many colorectal polyps develop at a young age. The risk of developing CRC is very high (80 to 100%). Such individuals should consider having the colon removed before the age of 40 years old. Another type of inheritance is an individual with a relative with polyps or CRC. He/she is also at a higher risk of CRC (although the risk is low compared to a familial polyposis individual).
4. Ulcerative Colitis (UC)
This is a disease affecting the bowels leading to inflammation and cancerous change in the long term. People with UC has a significant risk of CRC.
5. Dietary Habits
Research has identified certain types of food and food supplements which can affect our risk of CRC:
Food that increase the risk
Explanation
Meat, cooked at high temperature
It contained chemicals, e.g. heterocyclic amines that are carcinogenic
Animal fat
Fat is converted to bile acids which can promote cancer change in the mucosa of the colon
Diet high in refined carbohydrate==transit in the colon is slow, as a result, the extended presence of bile acids may result in the carcinogenic effects on the bowel tissue
Tobacco and Alcohol
Tobacco has been shown to increase polyp formation
Food that reduce the risk
Explanation
Fibre (vegetables, fruits, bran)
Fibre help to reduce the transit time of faeces and to dilute the carcinogens in the colon
Vitamin Supplement (especially folate)
Studies have shown that regular multivites & folate can reduce CRC risk
Mineral intake esp calcium
Calcuim can bind to fatty acids and bile acids and reduce our risk.
6. Drugs Current users of HRT (hormone replacement therapy) are at a lower risk of CRC and this protection disappear within 5 years of stopping the HRT.
Aspirin and NSAID (a strong painkiller drug) are known to reduce the risk from CRC. However it is too early at this stage of research to recommend the routine use of these drugs for this purpose.
7. Sedentary lifestyle and obesity These two related factors increase the risk of CRC. Physical Activity helps to regulate the transit time of faeces in the colon and hence can reduce the risk.
8. Past history of colorectal polyp or colorectal cancer. Despite knowing all these risk factors, the exact cause of CRC remains unknown. It is estimated that 50% of CRC patients have no known risk factors.**)

dance life friends and lover

2009-06-01T02:08:00.003+08:00

GOODIES

***

money cant buy happiness. money especially cant buy your smile baby.
when we digged our last few cents and get some food ...
aww it sounds pathetic but yet pretty sweet i feel.HAHA
times are rough when arguments around but
nevertheless it never fails to solve
with just a passionate kiss and warmth hug.
AMEN to that.

***

questionare i would like to ask to you my friend :
"am i that unreliable?"
for being your baby's godmother is one thing,but
why now than i know that you left because of another reason
except that one you told me?
what you take our 12 years friendship as?
fear of me couldnt take the blow you said?
i guess you this sort of excuse doesnt work on me.
just be happy then. its your choice anyway.

***

goodnight lovers,friends and haters,-

things that AMUSED me in the negative side.

2009-05-27T04:36:00.004+08:00

i took a slight break from my studious period.
im going to a serious *MADNESS*.

i went to search "complication of corneal ulcer" everywhere.
YES EVERYWHERE
*google.com* ask.com *msn.com* yahoo.com *search.com*
and a serious retard shit *dictionary.com*
i couldnt find anything more visible for my friggin project!!!!
GOD DAMN HEAVEN SAKE. nabei..
WAH,one more to go. i thought i could finish both projects in 2 hours.
so i would be able to accompany baby tomorow night
and give him a serious massage.
okay full stop to those retard whining.

taking a break and finnally opened a web asked by sharon.
my face started to turn from black to purple.
i scrolled down the tagboard, i was hmmm....
*that-person was having problem all around* pity soul. -.-

lesson learnt :
"stop comenting and shut the fuck up."
what i dont understand why makes your life so difficult by commenting such unnecessary stuff?
does it make your life feel better to see other's misery or unhapiness?

UPDATE
this is TO REMIND me of DIANE!!!

usefull wordings : dino , locking , pink , tiny , monster , diane

"wink vigorously~~~~ perfect combination.AHhahaHA"

i feel so smart haha.

i UPDATE 2 long postS in today!crazee

2009-05-26T16:10:00.003+08:00

WAH! GEEZ. I GET DAMN EXCITED AFTER
READING DIANE(thought diane has nothing to update so far),
KAHSING,TRICIA,JEANIE(THE THIN PONYTAIL),AUDREY
SHARON,DAPHENE,DAWN,BEV,JASMINE,XIAOMEI,HONEY
ANDEE (WHICH IS CLOSED FOR FRIEND),ARJUNA,AND MANY MORE

diane blog is always the first stop,
most probably because i could spell her blog without hesitation.
diane-loves.blogspot.com. okay this is random.

anyway, GET DAMN FRIGGIN high after reading everyone blogS.
most probably my hormone shoot up to my tiny lil brain and get myself
hype up instantly. okay this is duper random.

ACTUALLY,im finnaly get the vibe to BLOG!
everytime , here and there i essembled my variety of thoughts while
walking,before sleep,or dazing to update my blog. but ONCE,
i reached home,sat on my bed,faced my laptop, *bomb* every thought
dissapeared!

firstly,IM SO GLAD THAT I COME TO THE KONIGHT PARTY
last saturday and thats "Thanx to aho" for forcing me to with all his
whine and his sarcasm. but yes! LUCKY LUCKY I COME.
i watched every single battle till my eyes pop!!

AND IM SO proud of RUI!!
"remember U CAUSED ME NOT BE ABLE TO CHOREO because you
keep talking to me and me convincing you relax relax can one can one."

AND tiny monster pink with jin & ks team. AHAHAHA!
I KEEP laughing laughing and laughing during that battle.
ks WITH HIS FOREVER "Act dao"
and diane who give the "ne ne ni pu pu" and her dino mouth!
it was friggin a FUN TO WATCH battle. serious.
its been so long since i felt this way.
jin is forever hilarious.everyone knows it. and
tricia "come on dont be down :))"

and yes so many others .... GOOD JOB PEOPLE!

happy bday mikal and sharon.

get older get more money get cooler get all the

positive things in life !!!!!!!!!!!

and yes finnaly FINNALY!!!! I GOT AN IDEA
FOR 12 JUNE. and im excited i m going to buy new laptop!
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

STILL ALOT MORE BDAY COMINGS UP.MONEY IS DEPLETING!!
but of course its not a problem.its just a whine.hehe!!

soon on goin : bev,jasmine toh, kahsing, baby,xiaomei
TILL THEN~

restaurant's story

2009-05-26T14:32:00.003+08:00

so here it is. my new hair.
arjuna is SUPER DUPER talented.damn..
my eyes are glittering with envy. :))
ah...another excuse, narcissitic is in the on mode.

how am i suppose to earn? u see this !! everyone stealing my potatos !!

and the worst part IS I CAN only stole theirs *the most 6?* :(

goodnight babygirl

*ahh..dreaamy eyes*
i wish i could live in this dreamy land eternally.yes..imposible.
nodding my head to those comments.yet dreaming is never wrong.

yesterday,my family ,baby and i went out to eat dinner.
we went to a japanese restaurant.
my dad and i are a serious japanese food lover.
especially shasimi.."saliva drolling.."
in contracy,my mom and bro are practically quite a retard in those kind.

anyway,we ordered from the menu with amusement
as everything stated in kanji name.
my bro is smart enough though...
"kor,which one of those you think i could eat?"
so baby explained one by one for him and finnally he chose his food.
while i ordered for my dad sashimi&unagi with menu set.
my mom, she couldnt understand any of those. so she just pointed
a picture that looked the most drooling to her.
me and baby set on soba.
i called some other side dishes too,
3 pieces of oyster cook with eeg , crab makis , also SASHIMI!
and baby called 2 PIECE of onigiri.
as usual, none of us (except my bro) took notice on the prices.

my mom is a serious *big eater*.
she could say "im full" but you will keep seeing her munching.
so she ate every lil bit shares of everyone.

everyone almost done eating yet her food not yet arrived.
everyone kept wondering "why its so long? what has she ordered?"
when the food finnaly arrived, it was just like a some chinese
dish -a steamed fish-. oh GOSH!

DINNER SETTLED.here come the bills *227$*
while awaiting for my dad & bro ice creams.
my bro smiled at me.and im like"serious??"
so my dad passed over and asked me what was that?
"he pointed at the 40$ dish."
baby and i looked at each other because none of us
called anything sound like that.
so baby asked the waitress "what is this?"

guess what?
after she gave the answer,
baby turn to everyone and with his cheeky tone
he said : "aunty,its your steamed fish. " (in chinese)
everyone laughed even my bro chocked on his ice cream.

my father's reaction is the most hillarious.
scene : my mom was eating my dad's ice cream share.
he took the ice cream away and said
"enough eating, you eat the most expensive liao!!!"
so everyone bursted out laughing again.
and the waitress stared at us blankly.

***

anyway,
i have been writing a boring post with extreme wordless sentences.
however today's post i shall end it here :))

on the side note : aho, cheer up :)

gigly moment.

2009-05-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

the best part of arguments are MAKING UP.

*gigles*

pretence

2009-05-24T12:32:00.003+08:00

pretence is
the best way to prove assumptions.

im tryin to form a sentence of goodbye.

like *g*o*o*D*b*y*e

sometimes.

2009-05-23T14:33:00.000+08:00

enough

ENOUGH!

tired

2009-05-23T01:07:00.002+08:00

i hate things go very slow.
"there is time..there is time" mind this sentence?
look at everything in the bigger picture because when you do
you know you have such a lil time for such desires.

***

and thanks to ARJUNA.
A.J.I. *arjuna is dope*
I HAD a new hair.
will upload when photos are ready.

***

judgemental.

2009-05-22T13:48:00.004+08:00

now.present.

2009-05-22T13:48:00.003+08:00

i still feel the aches and pain every single part of my body.

i skipped my tuto as im actually late.and knowing that i m late
it meant i wont be given my present attedance.
so stop by at the lab, and spent the rest of my hour playing
happy farm.okay..this is so friggin ridiculous.....

i m still not getting over about yesterday yet.
feeling... i want to fall in love to dance again like when i see
people dance so happily.when i see bro and boo chasing
after their dream with no looking back. with such a great determination.
when i see my friends around me training so hard for a goal.
that feeling..the eagerness..that love.. i want it back so badly.
the feeling of wanting to run together with them.

stand tall.stay strong.stay focus.endure for the passion that once burning.

boo hugged me till i fell asleep.

i know he will catch me when i fall.

till then ,-

fear towards future.

2009-05-22T02:16:00.003+08:00

today is fun.
sessioned with honey.
joined by andy & andee.
i definately have alot to improve.alot to learn.
especially after what bro told me about "my feel" gone.
i definately know it and try to work on it. and im definately no
time to get demoralized and to get dissapointed over it.

***

its pretty hard to say what am i feeling.because i myself
seriously have no idea what to feel,neither reacting it yet.
all i know i need to overcome my fear.
i dance for myself to enjoy not to get stress over it.
enjoy...
this word sounds simple yet its so complicated.
i wanna feel the way i feel before.
i wanna dance because i enjoy and love dance.
not because i want to be acknowledge.not because i want to be someone else.
for that i need new inspirations.new foresight.

***

im feeling insecured.but why am i feeling this way?

there is this fear controlling me.fear of losing.why?

im scared.

dozens photos

2009-05-20T00:32:00.005+08:00

start with this super RANDOM shot.
if life just so random.noone can be rich.
of course!
because it means nothing can be ever predicted.not even you.
who is drawn into this random talk of mine.HA!

this is a super dued photo of ahei bday.
ps:where the cute become barbarian.:)hope hei will nv see this.if not i will b dead meat.

***

KO NIGHT PHOTOS.

the loves of my life.

***

lastly but never once the least.

tired.NIGHTS.

social relationship.

2009-05-18T13:37:00.003+08:00

three of questionare are patheticly done.none with score above 80
or at least reached 80.am i so mysterious?haha.

i feel a lil lost.i apreciated your concern but i guess talks are becomin
more and more harder for me nowadays.i guess its not a problem
with repeating the story,but its the problem with i hate consolidation.
but yeah i feel fine now.thank you.

***

why?close friend?then why u drift just like that?
every single time i talk to you..
ackward.i cant feel the sincerity.
why it feels so insecure?
why dont i ask?simply im too afraid it goes from worse to worst.

***

KO NIGHT.
good job guys.and i especially feel damn happy for tric&diane.:)
no need elaboration of it but yeah you know it,i know it's enough.
will update photos soon but not so soon.cause im still not home yet.

let me rest in peace.

notsoprivat

*_*

manywords.

TO :

bintan.

damn this filty life.

We will grow up eventually.

distorted thought.

yours beloved,

my new toy.

unidentified thought.

confusing

baby

its an unsolved state.

be friend because we are friend.

a piece of emotional condition

today,

love letter by the known one

To connie.

@#$%^&%*(^*)*

whatayawan from me

am i?sigh

held ur head up high.

DAY-OUT.

Morphos.

great days spent with great friends.

calm.

how could people be so retard..

doubleblue.

FTL.

happy valentine

emotionaly. physically.

worrisome days.

gettingallsweaty.

speechless

thosepotraits.

honey oh honey... madu madu.

$%^&

2010.

styleFORtry.

Give thanks to the holly God.

lonely.

DAY without words.

its called autistic.

narcissism.

GREAT JOURNEY of the 28.

EXCITEMENT.

monochrome for you.

lovey dokey lovey?

LOVE & LOVED.

lts talk about all the great friends around.

HAPPY 21TH bday christie armita

its love baby..~

impurity making it perfect.

crazily days.

animosity

baby

honeyHONEYhoney.

ahHAHA..kid nowadays.

events in life

a happy tulalit day

i nv been so happy to have you.

quality time alone.

guilty?bullshit.i dont need your pity.

great day

im so excited.dont tell you why.:)

confidence is all i need.

drunken memory

my world

day by day

baby,baby..i called ur name

if thats what youve called family.then count me out

how true is this? hmmm

midnight lonesome

anatano genki de tsu ka?

rhytm drill it !!

i am suppose im allright

i getting depressed

omg!

loveydokey

_

@#$%^&%(^)*